Saturday, 31 December 2011

Lo & behold... the year 2012!

I am lazy & in need of punishment, but how was I supposed to know?
Life's been a bitch, losing fat was harder than necessary 'cause of my f*cking hips & back etc... :(
Yeah, well. I'll really try to post more often & to actually not forget my password so I can comment on your entries while logged-in,... but I guess that's what every procrastinator says, "I will do this & that! I totes swear, man!" & you might be sick of it already in real Life, so I better shut up and move on to the next topic...
(BTW... I think, I can hear my Echo in here. It feels kinda deserted!? Oh look, some cliché Tumbleweed just crossed my way!)

New Year, new incentives?
My new Year resolutions are as follows... and I guess I'll actually want to go through with them.

01. Slim down at least 10 more kg's & 6% of fat in the coming 5 Months.
02. Blog more!?
03. Tackle the Shite around me & Declutter! (already started on that one last week)
04. Work on my Homepage.
05. Getting my arm inked!
06. Creating & starting on my "30-before-30" List.
07. Create a 2'nd Blog(plus a Tumblr?) about Food and/or Mugs/Bowls.
08. Do a major Backup & Digital Declutter on both my Notebook & my old Mac(Yes, it's almost 10 years old but still works fine)

What about yours?

Seems like my Car kicked the bucket last week, I havent's had it for more than 9.5 Months... :(
I feel used & unloved!

'Cause I feel like it today!

And last but not least...

Have a Happy New Year 2012!

And please be safe y'all, ja? ^_^

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

Manipulating in early stages

I was wading through my computer, found this by accident & I thought, I should show you one of the first few retouch/manipulation images I did back in I-Dunno. (+4 Years minimum I would reckon)
You always need a few works as a portfolio... for example, something like the picture on the left.
(Click on the image, for a bigger view!)

The left is the before, and the right is after I had my grabby hands on it.
01. I lightend & changed her hair-colour for a tiny fraction, to make it more reddish.
02. Gave her two orange-red strands, just to see if I was able to make it look realistic.
03. Made her dress green.
04. 'Gave' her some proper lipstick.
05. Changed the eye-colour & the kajal line around her eyes to grey, with a slight blueish tint.
06. Applied a tiny bit more of the rouge, that was already there.
07. There was something more, but I can not remember it for the life of me. :S

Back to the before-after thingy up there, I just wanted to show you some of the stuff, people actually pay for. And while it might not seem something of a huge change, you wouldn't believe what some people feel weirded out about in their personal images.
A too big nose here, an unwanted eye-colour there.
You get the point.

My fave part, that I did on this Woman, are her eyes. I'm a sucker for grey & green eyes.
And while, today, I can see a few errors in this image, I really do like it none the less.

By the way, she's a model & that shot is taken from a stock-artist on DA, so there was no really need to retouch any zits or so.
Although, I did not remove those tiny, barely visible, wrinkles around the eye, before sharpening the pic(without using actual sharpening tools, looks too fake). Back then I did not know how vain people really could be... how innocent I was.

I hope you like this entry, I was going to upload an mouseover/rollover image, but just did not fiind an online uploader to my liking, sorry.
I so do love mouseovers/rollovers, it's like watching magic happening just by flying over that image with your cursor. *sighs*

I better stop here. See you next time.


Now to the, not really obligatory, resources/stocks from me to those of you who actually want them! Download, use & have fun! And Crediting = Love!
TgS-17 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock
White Pine by ~PinkPanthress-Stock

Monday, 1 August 2011

Are you going to eat that?

So, another new Month or Year starting on a Monday. Again.
And I will try my hands on losing those fugly kg's of excess weight. Again.
Well, I will try to, which does not mean I will actually succeed.

First Day in and I already want to rip everyone's head off. I get pissed easily if I can not eat & drink when I am hungry.

Not to mention the 'Sugary Problem' I will inevitably face in less than 3 Days.
You see, I have kind of constant low blood sugar, so I need to stuff my face on time or I will become the most dangerous Bomb around you. Ready to explode, without warning.
Hmm, ok... if I do like you, I will warn you. Though, through gritted teeth.

Wish me lots of Luck, my precious Stalkers.
I really need it. *smootch*

Oh, and if you read a News Article in the coming Days, somewhere around my whereabouts, about a 20-something woman chewing off her fingers while dieting... think of me. *stomach growl*


And here the resources & stocks. Download, use & please credit!

TgS-16 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock

SF - D by ~PinkPanthress-Stock

Wednesday, 20 July 2011

20 Jiǎozi for Youqing.

As you can see on the left, I have been on a Mini-Haul at the nearest Asia-Shop. The owner is chinese but has everything Asian from indonesian Agar-Agar to japanese Nori. I had to search a long time to find a shop as huge as his.

We do not have anything resembling a Chinatown, as the english speakers call it.
Okay, so we once had one, but the Nazis 'did their job' & well, the rest is History... :(
Though, come to think of it, we do have one Japantown, but that is just not the same.

You will only find a few chinese Shops scattered in big Cities across this Country. And they are by far nothing comparable to those in San Francisco or Vancouver.
I just can not wait, to go there again next Month.
Oh, and definitely worth the long Drive!

So that was it for now. I need to retouch some stuff.

And by the way, just a quick question... does anyone of you know a place like photobucket, that you can use to upload a 'hover-over' Flash?


Here the resources/stocks. Download & use, have fun & credit!
AdBe 001 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock
Maidenhair by ~PinkPanthress-Stock

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Premio Award!? 8D~

Jesse the 'tagger', did just that. He gave me the "Premio Sunshine Award" today.
Thank you for this gorgeous Award, Jesse.

Since he changed the original Rules & I have a hectic day today anyway, I will change them, too.

I will do nothing more than to tag anyone who visits my page and reads this entry.

Have a nice day y'all...

Saturday, 9 July 2011

I am a Libra after all...

Today, 2 weeks ago, I got my right Nostril pierced.
I was thinking about it for over 14 years now, but could never bring myself to do it. Not because of the pain there would be, there was no real pain in the first.

First I was at Middle School and afraid I could be labeled by my Teachers.
Then came High School and I thought the same might happen, then College and so forth, and every time the same reasoning popped up in my head not to opt for a piercing in my face.

Also, I was most scared about finding and maintaining a job with jewellery like that.

You know, your boss is one of those ex-skanks who would do every guy since age 13 and have their tramp stamp since age 16, though it was illegal to get it at that age in the first, but God forbid if you have a tiny silver dot on the outside of your bloody Nostril.
Well, at least my first Boss was like that, she was such a Bigot!
The second was a tiny bit better, but nothing like that was acceptable for her either.
So, no piercing for you, Nokta!

Though I have 6 piercings in my earlobes (I would have been able to hide them with my long hair hanging over my ears if the need would ever arise) that was never a problem with anyone.
And Tattoos, only where no one can see them... but I am not going to digress too much, I promise.

After seeing for a few years now that young chicks, working as kindergarten teachers & doctor's assistants, have cheek piercings or even labret piercings... I thought to myself that since I was a Freelancer, I could have mine, too.
I mean, come on, what looks worse in your eyes, a piercing in the
nostril or in the cheek!?

Also for years my family(with one of my brother's now ex-GF being the biggest pain in the A*se) tried to keep my away from getting mine.

Though, to be honest, finding a good piercer was my real problem. I wanted someone who was good at what they do, around my age & female.

And now after searching almost 3 years I got the piercing, it looks gorgeous and I can barely wait for it to perfectly heal up, so that I can buy some great jewellery.

By the way, I am still waiting for the pain... and everyone kept telling me beforehand, including the piercer herself, that sneezing and blowing your nose would hurt like a bitch, which it both did not...
Either I am very tough or everyone else is a wuss!


Here the resources/stocks. Download, use & credit!

Another Big Red
by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Joshua Tree
by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Wednesday, 29 June 2011

Türk Konsolosluğu & People!

Last friday I accompanied my mother to the Turkish Consulate. We already had been there 3.5 weeks earlier, and only had to come back to get her new ID.

It was weird...
I was the only one not looking Turkish.
I was the only one with light skin.
I was the only one with natural(and not coloured) medium golden brown hair. Not black or very dark brown.
I was taller than everyone there, except for 3 or 4 young men.
I was the only German.
I was the only one talking German.
And... I was the only one using proper High-Turkish, when I actually had to talk Turkish.

I felt so alien in this old building, surrounded by people who where just so not like me. Not only physical.
Also they just weren't what I would call turkish, most of all not their behaviour.
Turkish people are generally quite kind & forthcoming (if your father also is turkish, damnit!)... but these?

Disabled, pregnant or frail, old people? No one did care or consider.
Everyone just wanted to be the first at the counter. Pushing, nagging and cursing they would queue-jump at every and no opportunity.
Something that used to be unimaginable for a Turk.

Then some of them would demand the most impossible tasks from the officials working at the counters and where mad even hough they had only themselves to blame, that their wishes(or more like crazy demands) could not be met.

At our first visit weeks ago there was a guy, asking my mother to let him go first, he just had to ask a quick question. (which was obviously a lie)
My mother told him polite yet firmly, that she was blind and had had a long journey to the consulate, and considering her all around health she could not do that.
And he? -He answerd saucily, that it was noticable she had been living for a long time in Germany. After all she really had absorbed their shitty culture!
Ahm, WTF?

Only a few seconds later my mother closed her eyes, it was hot and she was not feeling that great all day anyway, and leaned on the metal divider (between the counters).
I was asking her if she was okay and that Bastard used the moment and swept past us, shoving the headscarf wearing woman at the counter rudely away, talking hastily to the female Civil-Servant... (Well, if this is the 'new' Turkish culture and way of life, then I prefer to behave German!)

...and she smoothly told him to leave, she could not help him anyway since he had to go another office(the building has no lift) 3 floors upstairs and that the specific clerk might not be there anyway on that day. (take that you old Camel-f*cker! nah sana...)
If my mother had not held me back, I would have introduced his Face to my Fist!

Like I said, both times at the Consulate were most terrible.
And both times I could feel a huge psychologic burden lift from my shoulders as soon as I left that dreadful scene.
The place was depressing to say the least.

Thank Goodness, we do not have to go there for another 10 years.

On an upside note... there was a young man who also wanted to renew his turkish ID... but he was ethnically Japanese... Kawaii ^_^

So, that's it for tonight.


For those who are in need of digital resources... 2 new Links!
Download, have fun & credit, please!

by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

YourChoice pack 03
by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Friday, 17 June 2011

So I am Kreativ und kriege an Award!?

I have been awarded with this lovely Award by the friendly Tres Zapotes f.k.a. Jesse!
Thank you, dear!

Here are the 6 rules for the Kreativ Blogger Award which you will need to follow if you are chosen:
  • 01. Copy/paste the Kreativ Blogger Award picture onto your blog
  • 02. Thank the person, whom awarded it to you and post a link to her/his blog
  • 03. Write 7 things about yourself we do not know/might find interesting
  • 04. Choose/Nominate 7 other bloggers for the award
  • 05. Link to them on your blog
  • 06. Notify your 7 bloggers of their award
Okay, let's try this one...

01. When I was 8 years old, I started to learn Moroccan Arabic, my 5'th language. It was the 1'st language that I did not really need to learn, but did anyway because of my BFF! Today I only know a few words. :(

02. I used to be in the school Choir for 11 years. Most of the time doing the 1'st solo voice.

03. I would be around 1,96 metres in height today, 6 ft 5.17 in. But after my first surgery some of the meds kind of had some side effects & now I am only around 1,74 metres today. (which some still find a bit too tall for a woman...) D:

04. I almost never watch TV, I detest most of what is shown in the Idiot Box.

05. I need my hot shower in the morning, never in the evening (I have to feel 'Fresh' when I go out). Also I never bathe, I hate that with a passion. It feels like your cooking in your own juices. *bleh*

06. I do have very frequent Déjà vu experiences. Sometimes they are so intense, it unsettles me.

07. There are a few Men in this World, that I have as my Muses (with one of them being my #1). I think of my Muse & listen to the right Music, AND BAM, I have the most gorgeous Ideas to work on.

Now on to those People, whom I would like to award with this...
I just went through some of your Blogs & noticed that a lot of you already have this Award.
That is why I will not Award anybody specific.
But if you read this & woudl love to partake, please feel free so and send me here the link to your very own Entry.

Now I am off to get me some comfort food, to chase away the awkwardness that befell me after telling people such weird things about myself.
I am very glad, we only have to tell 7... because I am so weird, I could fill more than a dozen DIN A4 format pages, even if I wrote in a very small size. *8D

Have a gorgeous Friday Night & a relaxing Weekend!

See you all in a few Days. *wheee*


Friday, 10 June 2011

A minor Case of 'OYG-LePänic'!?

Holy Sh*te! Slighty less than 4 Months until my next Birthday. According to the Calendar.

Normally I do not like it, whenever people enter a certain stage of life and tell you, that they have not done all the things they should have done in the stage of life, which they just left.
I rather find it ridiculous & childish to be honest. Most of them have done it all, and even more so than they should have.

However... when I looked into the mirror last Monday, after I had looked into said Calendar, I realised how much I had not done.
Now a few might think,... yeah sure, another one of 'those' chicks.
BUT... I can say in good conscience, that I really never had much in my life. It always was, still is & most likely will always be... boring. Uneventful!

I am nowhere near, in my life, where I should be at my age.
I did not accomplish the things, which I planned to. (the worst part of this is, that I did not want to achieve that much in the first. Only a few small things.)

Not to mention a few other things, which I won't mention since they are too personal.
The only things, which I can claim to have really done, is that I managed to do nothing of real substance.
Dodging a few important tasks in the past years.
(attaining)No tiny bit of personal growth.
Of not having gotten any serious life experience.
Never had any great achievements.

Also I could never learn from mistakes, because I have never made ​​serious ones. I was not allowed to even do any!

First 'they'(my close Family) did not allow me to do a thing on my own. Later I got over-cautious and became (extremely) paranoid to even go and make mistakes. (Something for which I should be grateful according to them, but am definitely NOT. Because I feel deprived of life experience!)
And what irks me the most? I was always held back from really living my own life, by each and everyone.
You know, like taking a deep breath... and to fully step knee-deep in to a huge piece of shit. All by myself! :)
To have fun, to be afraid of consequences. To learn which is good & which is not... et cetera... (sounds as if I was about to blame everyone else, which I am not. But it is the truth.)
I just do not feel comfortable with the idea that I have arrived at an age, where I do not really belong. (according to myself)
It is just too hard to accept for me, I guess. I feel like I am still an (very)early twentysomething.
*blergh* I do not like to tell so much of myself on the Internet, but I needed to write this down. I am feeling a little bit better, maybe now sleep will come more easily.
Also, I make myself sound as if I was 40+ or so... ah, I am such a wannabe Drama Queen!

Have a great Friday evening & Weekend you all.


And the first 2 resources/stocks after at long Hiatus. Download, use & credit!

by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Big Red
by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Saturday, 28 May 2011

˙·٠•● Staffetta dell'amicizia ●•٠·˙

Hello to you all on this warm Saturday morning,

my Friend Jesse tagged me some time ago. This is one of the first few Blog Entries, since ending that huge Hiatus of mine.
Have fun...

So in respecting the passing of the friendship baton, we shall observe the following rules.:

a) Create a blog post, and please use the IMAGE of the relay friendship race...
b) In your post, answer the Eight questions...
c) Pass the baton of friendship to 10 bloggers, and link them in your post...

1. - too small when you were asked, what you wanted to do when you were big; What did you reply?
2. - What were your favorite cartoons?
3. - What were your favorite games?
4. - What year was your nicest birthday and why?
5. - What were the things you absolutely wanted to do, and not yet done?
6. - Which was your first love? sports? or what not?
7. - Which was your first musical idol?
8. - Which was the most' beautiful sought (and eventually received), Santa Claus, Jesus' Child, Saint Lucia, christmas gift?

And my logical answers to the previous Eight questions are.:
1. - An Interpreter & Translator.
2. - Tom & Jerry, Simpsons
3. - (On Computer, mainly C64 & Amiga) Maniac Mansion, Zac McKracken & Superfrog, (Traditionally) Beş Taş & Pişti.
4. - I never had a great B-Day Party... & honestly I can not remember one where everything was just Wow.
5. - Too private... I do not think, I can write this down, sorry. :/
6. - Ooh, at age 8 I was the fave Goalkeeper at Soccer in our Class. Also best Dodgeball player, I LOVED Dodgeball and always lasted until the end! :D
7. - Freddie Mercury!
8. - Our family does not observe these Festivities. But at age 4(?) I got my first Computer ever. The c64

I will pass along this tag to the following 9 bloggers, though you are not obliged to do them, since you might already have been tagged in the past with this.:
01. Places with Character
02. Pinecone Camp
03. A majority of Two
04. The Bluesman says...
05. Us and Them
06. Irishonbizz
07. dyeve
08. Shutter Happy
09. Ruminations from a Goat Farmer

Thank you for reading & being part of this.. & have a wonderful weekend, wherever you are!


Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Hopefully back from Hiatus & other stuff!

I do not want to lie to you, but I will... ;)
Nah, just kidding!

So I had lots of stuff to do in the past Months, also I lost my google-password, found it, lost it again... you know, I was just being me. :D

But do not fear my dear anonymous & not so anonymous Stalkers, potential-Killers, Friends. I did read almost all of your Blog-Posts in the past Months. I just did not comment, words failed me too often. So I just stalked you all, so to speak.
Sorry about that!!!

Here a few that really lifted my spirits, when I was feeling low. Or when I was overworked... :C
I love her Stories & the places she went to!
Places with Character

She has got such an interesting life. :D
Pinecone Camp

Call him Hans, Bluesman Hans.
Bluesman Hans

A man, his kids & the Supreme Leader.
Us & them

A Lady which I really enjoy!
A majority of 2

Art & other interesting stuff!
The Main Art Blog

For the Interiors fanatic & some great inspiration...

Inspirational as well as something for building Castles in the Air...
little blue deer
(Just to name a few.)
Thank you guys & hopefully I will be able to blog more again in the future. Also I will try to comment again! After all your blogs are so worth it!


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