Friday, 17 February 2012

Her Zodiac = Her ilness...

...for those of us/you who are still slow today due to the past week & its lovey-dovey V-Day.
It's Cancer, that I'm talking of!

I do not know, what to make out of that. My mother is only in her mid-fifties. Always lived a healthy life-style.
She's religious & always did eat helal/kosher. Did always do what the Kur'an told her to do. (well, except for the headscraf wearing part & not to marry a heathen) :D
And that is what her God gives her... wow, what a fucking gorgeous present, Dude!

But what's puzzling me most is, her Doctor(General practitioner?) takes blood-samples from her every 3 Months & sends them to a lab because of her diabetes.
And only last December, when she stomped down her feet & told him that she had a bad feeling, and that he better look into it... did he find something.

And boy did he!
I mean honestly, what the Fuck?
Are you kidding me, you are a medical Doctor, and your Patient has to tell you that they have a 'weird' feeling, a hunch if you want to call it that, in order for you to finally move that crappy Ass of yours?

And the worst? I have 2 very big problems with this.

01. Being an pragmatic Agnostic, I can not find a way to vent off.
Also since I do not believe in god, why pray? -It won't help her or calm me.

Though I really do envy religious people at times, even though they know deep inside that their praying & pleading to their deities won't help, the feel like they did everything they could do within their power.

02. Then there is the strained relationship between me & my mother in general.
She did a lot of crap that changed my life for the negative & no amount of logical thinking, meditation and/or anything else can soften my heart.
Even though I sometimes wish it would, after all she is my mother. One half of me.

She didn't, and to be honest she still hasn't, really told me what is wrong with her.
I only know that she has 4 or 5 Metastases/Tumors. Two right under her heart & the rest somewhere in her midsection.
You know, she feels special(or more like a martyr) by not telling me the whole story...

*pfft* I just realised, that whenever I write something concerning my mother, it sounds 75% of the time as if I were a big ass!? :( I probably am...

I better stop here.
Oh yeah, and, the Year started so gorgeous... I really do not know who to thank for it. *sarcasm*

Yours,
Nokta

P.S.: Have a great Weekend... and make the most out of it...

6 comments:

  1. Hello, PinkPanthress.

      Attractive works.
      You are the excellent artist.

      I thank for your usual and hearty support.
      And i pray for you and yours peace.
      
    Have a good weekend. From Japan, ruma ❃

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    1. Thank you, ruma. :)

      For the kind words & the compliment!

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  2. Sorry to hear about your mother.
    God is the name given by Man to the supernatural power that has created the universe and rules it.
    You should pray to this power and give your mother all the support you can.

    May God send your mother a cure to her illness and you the right thoughts!

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    1. Thank you for your soothing words, Duta.
      I'll try to help her as much as I can, but believe me that she's hard to please. :(

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  3. Hey stranger. I'd say it was time for a new doctor. Kinda been having the same issue with my dad, just not with cancer.

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    1. Thank you, good Sir. ;) I told my mother the same.
      I'm sorry to hear that about your Dad. I hope he is in better, read more capable, Hands now!!

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