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6 Months later

2012-01-31T22:01:00.000+01:00

I didn't really want to write anymore about the whole dieting stuff, since that first post last August.

But damn, today was the last day of my first Étape(6 Months) and how much do you think did I slim down?

-13kg's!!! (28.66lbs)

Also my body consists of 8% less fat than before I started the diet. A fact which is much more important to me, as though I only had lost weight without the fat percentage difference.

I do not want to lose muscles, you know?

I would have lost more weight (circa 6 to 8kg) but while on my diet, I had a few set backs(my health acting up & the week around new Year in which we eat as if our life depends on it) also I gained 3.6% of muscles, which makes a big difference, too (if a positive one).

My Belly & Butt are so much more firm and when I smack the latter now, it won't wobble.

Meaning, it doesn't look like I am Homer J. Simpson's long lost Sister or a Dancer from a 90'ties Rap Music Video shacking her arse to the beat right int the Camera. *phew*

(Ok, I might exaggerate a ~~bit~~ lot here, it never really wobbled like that in the first. But let me spin a yarn here, 'kay?)

Next Étape will take another 6 Months and hopefully another 13kg's! :D

I can't get enough of it!

Only real Downside to all this are two things.

I have to do sports 7 days a week, 25 minutes minimum every day. (Which my hips do not like at all)

Also I need to eat 4 to 5 small meals while drinking at least 1.5 litre of water per day. *bleh*

Well, I guess that's it for today.

Wish me luck for the next few Months you all... and if you're trying to get healthier I wish you good luck as well.

Also, any advice for me on how to make myself drink maybe 2 litres a day? -I would like to up my daily intake.

Thnx in advance.

Yours,

Nokta

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Woohoo, me gusta! flails arms

2012-01-14T02:56:00.000+01:00

I know, I knoww... I shouldn't be so happy about a trivial thing such as this 'reply to your readers through threaded commenting' thingy, but I am.
I mean, come on how awesome is that!? :Ɖ
This will make it easier to reply to someone, whether it's just because you're chatty(like me) or because you honestly want to answer stupid questions(like mine).
I already tried it out in the comments of my last entry... très wow!

I've been rambling about it so long & lamenting its lack on blogger for years now, makes me feel like someone actually listens to my nagging!? ❤

O'kay... now that I stopped hyperventilating about this, I guess I can try to get some sleep.
Though, I think I will need my pre-bed fix of Sudoku first of course or else I might dream about little reply options & comment boxes.

So have a good Night & a beautiful Weekend my precious Darlings.

Yours,
Nokta

Lo & behold... the year 2012!

2011-12-31T10:37:00.006+01:00

I.
I am lazy & in need of punishment, but how was I supposed to know?
Life's been a bitch, losing fat was harder than necessary 'cause of my f*cking hips & back etc... :(
Yeah, well. I'll really try to post more often & to actually not forget my password so I can comment on your entries while logged-in,... but I guess that's what every procrastinator says, "I will do this & that! I totes swear, man!" & you might be sick of it already in real Life, so I better shut up and move on to the next topic...
(BTW... I think, I can hear my Echo in here. It feels kinda deserted!? Oh look, some cliché Tumbleweed just crossed my way!)

II.
New Year, new incentives?
My new Year resolutions are as follows... and I guess I'll actually want to go through with them.

01. Slim down at least 10 more kg's & 6% of fat in the coming 5 Months.
02. Blog more!?
03. Tackle the Shite around me & Declutter! (already started on that one last week)
04. Work on my Homepage.
05. Getting my arm inked!
06. Creating & starting on my "30-before-30" List.
07. Create a 2'nd Blog(plus a Tumblr?) about Food and/or Mugs/Bowls.
08. Do a major Backup & Digital Declutter on both my Notebook & my old Mac(Yes, it's almost 10 years old but still works fine)

What about yours?

III.
Seems like my Car kicked the bucket last week, I havent's had it for more than 9.5 Months... :(
I feel used & unloved!

IV.
'Cause I feel like it today!

V.
And last but not least...

Have a Happy New Year 2012!

And please be safe y'all, ja? ^_^

Manipulating in early stages

2011-08-09T23:26:00.006+02:00

I was wading through my computer, found this by accident & I thought, I should show you one of the first few retouch/manipulation images I did back in I-Dunno. (+4 Years minimum I would reckon)
You always need a few works as a portfolio... for example, something like the picture on the left.
(Click on the image, for a bigger view!)

The left is the before, and the right is after I had my grabby hands on it.
01. I lightend & changed her hair-colour for a tiny fraction, to make it more reddish.
02. Gave her two orange-red strands, just to see if I was able to make it look realistic.
03. Made her dress green.
04. 'Gave' her some proper lipstick.
05. Changed the eye-colour & the kajal line around her eyes to grey, with a slight blueish tint.
06. Applied a tiny bit more of the rouge, that was already there.
07. There was something more, but I can not remember it for the life of me. :S

Back to the before-after thingy up there, I just wanted to show you some of the stuff, people actually pay for. And while it might not seem something of a huge change, you wouldn't believe what some people feel weirded out about in their personal images.
A too big nose here, an unwanted eye-colour there.
You get the point.

My fave part, that I did on this Woman, are her eyes. I'm a sucker for grey & green eyes.
And while, today, I can see a few errors in this image, I really do like it none the less.

By the way, she's a model & that shot is taken from a stock-artist on DA, so there was no really need to retouch any zits or so.
Although, I did not remove those tiny, barely visible, wrinkles around the eye, before sharpening the pic(without using actual sharpening tools, looks too fake). Back then I did not know how vain people really could be... how innocent I was.

I hope you like this entry, I was going to upload an mouseover/rollover image, but just did not fiind an online uploader to my liking, sorry.
I so do love mouseovers/rollovers, it's like watching magic happening just by flying over that image with your cursor. *sighs*

I better stop here. See you next time.

Yours,
Nokta

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Are you going to eat that?

2011-08-01T21:24:00.003+02:00

So, another new Month or Year starting on a Monday. Again.
And I will try my hands on losing those fugly kg's of excess weight. Again.
Well, I will try to, which does not mean I will actually succeed.

First Day in and I already want to rip everyone's head off. I get pissed easily if I can not eat & drink when I am hungry.

Not to mention the 'Sugary Problem' I will inevitably face in less than 3 Days.
You see, I have kind of constant low blood sugar, so I need to stuff my face on time or I will become the most dangerous Bomb around you. Ready to explode, without warning.
Hmm, ok... if I do like you, I will warn you. Though, through gritted teeth.

Wish me lots of Luck, my precious Stalkers.
I really need it. *smootch*

Oh, and if you read a News Article in the coming Days, somewhere around my whereabouts, about a 20-something woman chewing off her fingers while dieting... think of me. *stomach growl*

Yours,
Nokta

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20 Jiǎozi for Youqing.

2011-07-20T22:42:00.007+02:00

As you can see on the left, I have been on a Mini-Haul at the nearest Asia-Shop. The owner is chinese but has everything Asian from indonesian Agar-Agar to japanese Nori. I had to search a long time to find a shop as huge as his.

We do not have anything resembling a Chinatown, as the english speakers call it.
Okay, so we once had one, but the Nazis 'did their job' & well, the rest is History... :(
Though, come to think of it, we do have one Japantown, but that is just not the same.

You will only find a few chinese Shops scattered in big Cities across this Country. And they are by far nothing comparable to those in San Francisco or Vancouver.
I just can not wait, to go there again next Month.
Oh, and definitely worth the long Drive!

So that was it for now. I need to retouch some stuff.

And by the way, just a quick question... does anyone of you know a place like photobucket, that you can use to upload a 'hover-over' Flash?

Yours,
Nokta

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Premio Award!? 8D~

2011-07-14T11:38:00.005+02:00

Jesse the 'tagger', did just that. He gave me the "Premio Sunshine Award" today.
Thank you for this gorgeous Award, Jesse.

Since he changed the original Rules & I have a hectic day today anyway, I will change them, too.

I will do nothing more than to tag anyone who visits my page and reads this entry.

Have a nice day y'all...

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I am a Libra after all...

2011-07-09T23:27:00.005+02:00

Today, 2 weeks ago, I got my right Nostril pierced.
I was thinking about it for over 14 years now, but could never bring myself to do it. Not because of the pain there would be, there was no real pain in the first.

First I was at Middle School and afraid I could be labeled by my Teachers.
Then came High School and I thought the same might happen, then College and so forth, and every time the same reasoning popped up in my head not to opt for a piercing in my face.

Also, I was most scared about finding and maintaining a job with jewellery like that.

You know, your boss is one of those ex-skanks who would do every guy since age 13 and have their tramp stamp since age 16, though it was illegal to get it at that age in the first, but God forbid if you have a tiny silver dot on the outside of your bloody Nostril.
Well, at least my first Boss was like that, she was such a Bigot!
The second was a tiny bit better, but nothing like that was acceptable for her either.
So, no piercing for you, Nokta!

Though I have 6 piercings in my earlobes (I would have been able to hide them with my long hair hanging over my ears if the need would ever arise) that was never a problem with anyone.
And Tattoos, only where no one can see them... but I am not going to digress too much, I promise.

After seeing for a few years now that young chicks, working as kindergarten teachers & doctor's assistants, have cheek piercings or even labret piercings... I thought to myself that since I was a Freelancer, I could have mine, too.
I mean, come on, what looks worse in your eyes, a piercing in the nostril or in the cheek!?

Also for years my family(with one of my brother's now ex-GF being the biggest pain in the A*se) tried to keep my away from getting mine.

Though, to be honest, finding a good piercer was my real problem. I wanted someone who was good at what they do, around my age & female.

And now after searching almost 3 years I got the piercing, it looks gorgeous and I can barely wait for it to perfectly heal up, so that I can buy some great jewellery.

By the way, I am still waiting for the pain... and everyone kept telling me beforehand, including the piercer herself, that sneezing and blowing your nose would hurt like a bitch, which it both did not...
Either I am very tough or everyone else is a wuss!

Yours,
Nokta

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Türk Konsolosluğu & People!

2011-06-29T21:27:00.005+02:00

Last friday I accompanied my mother to the Turkish Consulate. We already had been there 3.5 weeks earlier, and only had to come back to get her new ID.

It was weird...
I was the only one not looking Turkish.
I was the only one with light skin.
I was the only one with natural(and not coloured) medium golden brown hair. Not black or very dark brown.
I was taller than everyone there, except for 3 or 4 young men.
I was the only German.
I was the only one talking German.
And... I was the only one using proper High-Turkish, when I actually had to talk Turkish.

I felt so alien in this old building, surrounded by people who where just so not like me. Not only physical.
Also they just weren't what I would call turkish, most of all not their behaviour.
Turkish people are generally quite kind & forthcoming (if your father also is turkish, damnit!)... but these?

Disabled, pregnant or frail, old people? No one did care or consider.
Everyone just wanted to be the first at the counter. Pushing, nagging and cursing they would queue-jump at every and no opportunity.
Something that used to be unimaginable for a Turk.

Then some of them would demand the most impossible tasks from the officials working at the counters and where mad even hough they had only themselves to blame, that their wishes(or more like crazy demands) could not be met.

At our first visit weeks ago there was a guy, asking my mother to let him go first, he just had to ask a quick question. (which was obviously a lie)
My mother told him polite yet firmly, that she was blind and had had a long journey to the consulate, and considering her all around health she could not do that.
And he? -He answerd saucily, that it was noticable she had been living for a long time in Germany. After all she really had absorbed their shitty culture!
Ahm, WTF?

Only a few seconds later my mother closed her eyes, it was hot and she was not feeling that great all day anyway, and leaned on the metal divider (between the counters).
I was asking her if she was okay and that Bastard used the moment and swept past us, shoving the headscarf wearing woman at the counter rudely away, talking hastily to the female Civil-Servant... (Well, if this is the 'new' Turkish culture and way of life, then I prefer to behave German!)

...and she smoothly told him to leave, she could not help him anyway since he had to go another office(the building has no lift) 3 floors upstairs and that the specific clerk might not be there anyway on that day. (take that you old Camel-f*cker! nah sana...)
If my mother had not held me back, I would have introduced his Face to my Fist!

Like I said, both times at the Consulate were most terrible.
And both times I could feel a huge psychologic burden lift from my shoulders as soon as I left that dreadful scene.
The place was depressing to say the least.

Thank Goodness, we do not have to go there for another 10 years.

On an upside note... there was a young man who also wanted to renew his turkish ID... but he was ethnically Japanese... Kawaii ^_^

So, that's it for tonight.

Yours,
Nokta

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So I am Kreativ und kriege an Award!?

2011-06-17T23:22:00.007+02:00

I have been awarded with this lovely Award by the friendly Tres Zapotes f.k.a. Jesse!
Thank you, dear!

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Here are the 6 rules for the Kreativ Blogger Award which you will need to follow if you are chosen:

01. Copy/paste the Kreativ Blogger Award picture onto your blog
02. Thank the person, whom awarded it to you and post a link to her/his blog
03. Write 7 things about yourself we do not know/might find interesting
04. Choose/Nominate 7 other bloggers for the award
05. Link to them on your blog
06. Notify your 7 bloggers of their award

Okay, let's try this one...

01. When I was 8 years old, I started to learn Moroccan Arabic, my 5'th language. It was the 1'st language that I did not really need to learn, but did anyway because of my BFF! Today I only know a few words. :(

02. I used to be in the school Choir for 11 years. Most of the time doing the 1'st solo voice.

03. I would be around 1,96 metres in height today, 6 ft 5.17 in. But after my first surgery some of the meds kind of had some side effects & now I am only around 1,74 metres today. (which some still find a bit too tall for a woman...) D:

04. I almost never watch TV, I detest most of what is shown in the Idiot Box.

05. I need my hot shower in the morning, never in the evening (I have to feel 'Fresh' when I go out). Also I never bathe, I hate that with a passion. It feels like your cooking in your own juices. *bleh*

06. I do have very frequent Déjà vu experiences. Sometimes they are so intense, it unsettles me.

07. There are a few Men in this World, that I have as my Muses (with one of them being my #1). I think of my Muse & listen to the right Music, AND BAM, I have the most gorgeous Ideas to work on.

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Now on to those People, whom I would like to award with this...
I just went through some of your Blogs & noticed that a lot of you already have this Award.
That is why I will not Award anybody specific.
But if you read this & woudl love to partake, please feel free so and send me here the link to your very own Entry.

Now I am off to get me some comfort food, to chase away the awkwardness that befell me after telling people such weird things about myself.
I am very glad, we only have to tell 7... because I am so weird, I could fill more than a dozen DIN A4 format pages, even if I wrote in a very small size. *8D

Have a gorgeous Friday Night & a relaxing Weekend!

See you all in a few Days. *wheee*

Yours,
Nokta

A minor Case of 'OYG-LePänic'!?

2011-06-10T01:28:00.008+02:00

Holy Sh*te! Slighty less than 4 Months until my next Birthday. According to the Calendar.

Normally I do not like it, whenever people enter a certain stage of life and tell you, that they have not done all the things they should have done in the stage of life, which they just left.
I rather find it ridiculous & childish to be honest. Most of them have done it all, and even more so than they should have.

However... when I looked into the mirror last Monday, after I had looked into said Calendar, I realised how much I had not done.
Now a few might think,... yeah sure, another one of 'those' chicks.
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BUT... I can say in good conscience, that I really never had much in my life. It always was, still is & most likely will always be... boring. Uneventful!

I am nowhere near, in my life, where I should be at my age.
I did not accomplish the things, which I planned to. (the worst part of this is, that I did not want to achieve that much in the first. Only a few small things.)

Not to mention a few other things, which I won't mention since they are too personal.
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The only things, which I can claim to have really done, is that I managed to do nothing of real substance.
Dodging a few important tasks in the past years.
(attaining)No tiny bit of personal growth.
Of not having gotten any serious life experience.
Never had any great achievements.

Also I could never learn from mistakes, because I have never made serious ones. I was not allowed to even do any!

First 'they'(my close Family) did not allow me to do a thing on my own. Later I got over-cautious and became (extremely) paranoid to even go and make mistakes. (Something for which I should be grateful according to them, but am definitely NOT. Because I feel deprived of life experience!)
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And what irks me the most? I was always held back from really living my own life, by each and everyone.
You know, like taking a deep breath... and to fully step knee-deep in to a huge piece of shit. All by myself! :)
To have fun, to be afraid of consequences. To learn which is good & which is not... et cetera... (sounds as if I was about to blame everyone else, which I am not. But it is the truth.)
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I just do not feel comfortable with the idea that I have arrived at an age, where I do not really belong. (according to myself)
It is just too hard to accept for me, I guess. I feel like I am still an (very)early twentysomething.
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*blergh* I do not like to tell so much of myself on the Internet, but I needed to write this down. I am feeling a little bit better, maybe now sleep will come more easily.
Also, I make myself sound as if I was 40+ or so... ah, I am such a wannabe Drama Queen!

Have a great Friday evening & Weekend you all.

Yours,
Nokta
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˙·٠•● Staffetta dell'amicizia ●•٠·˙

2011-05-28T10:08:00.004+02:00

Hello to you all on this warm Saturday morning,

my Friend Jesse tagged me some time ago. This is one of the first few Blog Entries, since ending that huge Hiatus of mine.
Have fun...

So in respecting the passing of the friendship baton, we shall observe the following rules.:

a) Create a blog post, and please use the IMAGE of the relay friendship race...
b) In your post, answer the Eight questions...
c) Pass the baton of friendship to 10 bloggers, and link them in your post...

1. - too small when you were asked, what you wanted to do when you were big; What did you reply?
2. - What were your favorite cartoons?
3. - What were your favorite games?
4. - What year was your nicest birthday and why?
5. - What were the things you absolutely wanted to do, and not yet done?
6. - Which was your first love? sports? or what not?
7. - Which was your first musical idol?
8. - Which was the most' beautiful sought (and eventually received), Santa Claus, Jesus' Child, Saint Lucia, christmas gift?

And my logical answers to the previous Eight questions are.:
1. - An Interpreter & Translator.
2. - Tom & Jerry, Simpsons
3. - (On Computer, mainly C64 & Amiga) Maniac Mansion, Zac McKracken & Superfrog, (Traditionally) Beş Taş & Pişti.
4. - I never had a great B-Day Party... & honestly I can not remember one where everything was just Wow.
5. - Too private... I do not think, I can write this down, sorry. :/
6. - Ooh, at age 8 I was the fave Goalkeeper at Soccer in our Class. Also best Dodgeball player, I LOVED Dodgeball and always lasted until the end! :D
7. - Freddie Mercury!
8. - Our family does not observe these Festivities. But at age 4(?) I got my first Computer ever. The c64

I will pass along this tag to the following 9 bloggers, though you are not obliged to do them, since you might already have been tagged in the past with this.:
01. Places with Character
02. Pinecone Camp
03. A majority of Two
04. The Bluesman says...
05. Us and Them
06. Irishonbizz
07. dyeve
08. Shutter Happy
09. Ruminations from a Goat Farmer

Thank you for reading & being part of this.. & have a wonderful weekend, wherever you are!

Yours,
Nokta

Hopefully back from Hiatus & other stuff!

2011-05-18T21:21:00.002+02:00

I do not want to lie to you, but I will... ;)
Nah, just kidding!

So I had lots of stuff to do in the past Months, also I lost my google-password, found it, lost it again... you know, I was just being me. :D

But do not fear my dear anonymous & not so anonymous ~~Stalkers~~, ~~potential-Killers~~, Friends. I did read almost all of your Blog-Posts in the past Months. I just did not comment, words failed me too often. So I just stalked you all, so to speak.
Sorry about that!!!

Here a few that really lifted my spirits, when I was feeling low. Or when I was overworked... :C

I love her Stories & the places she went to!
Places with Character

She has got such an interesting life. :D
Pinecone Camp

Call him Hans, Bluesman Hans.
Bluesman Hans

A man, his kids & the Supreme Leader.
Us & them

A Lady which I really enjoy!
A majority of 2

Art & other interesting stuff!
The Main Art Blog

For the Interiors fanatic & some great inspiration...
Varnish

Inspirational as well as something for building Castles in the Air...
little blue deer

(Just to name a few.)
Thank you guys & hopefully I will be able to blog more again in the future. Also I will try to comment again! After all your blogs are so worth it!

❤❤❤
xoxoxo

License, mon 'air & Hail Seitan...

2010-06-19T22:44:00.005+02:00

To all the beautiful Ladies & Gents out there. It is official, yours truely has gotten her driver's license & can legally kill people on the street! *yay* All I need now, is to save up some more money to get my own car & actually to do the deed!

Thank you again, to all those who crossed their fingers on the 2'nd of June 2010.
I did not do one single driving error & got my license right after we were back at the TÜV... all the good vibes you did send, grounded & helped me.

*sighs* I can already see myself, self-righteously driving in a car, mindlessly polluting the air for all the generations to come. (Isn't that nice of me) ^_^
Take this future! *flips the bird*
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Apropos future... I'm about to make my first Seitan tomorrow, not Satan... Seitan! :D
You see, I always try to do something new, so when I did read about Seitan, it was only logical for me to gather some more info about it. And hopefully, or more like successfully, I can make an edible batch of my own.
I might tell you on a side note in my next entry how it was & if it is easy to do on your own.
AND how it tastes, of course!
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:) Which reminds me, after washing my hair last night, I rinsed it with a 120ml concoction, consisting 1/4 of vinegar and 3/4 of water. Man, did it smell bad at first, made me actually gag a bit, but OYG, my hair felt clean afterwards.
Normally when I am done with my shower & after the hair is dry again, it already starts to get all greasy & oily. Also, after less than 2 days it looks like I never washed it in the first!
We will see what this time will happen... C:

I guess, that's it for today. Thank you for reading this and have a 'fantabulous' weekend!

Yours,
Nokta

P.S.: I put a Poll on the upper right of this blog, right under the blue header. Please be so kind and take the time to click your answer, even if you are oone of those whom normally do stay anonymous. :) Thank you loads!

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Neighbour was rotting away and nobody cared.

2010-06-08T20:59:00.003+02:00

On friday the 28'th of May 2010 I was sitting in mother's sitting-room, she was lazying on the couch because of the heat & her health problems, when my father came in from the door to the flat.

We both laughed when father stood in front of us a few seconds later & made gagging sounds.
He said.:"God damn it, I hate these stingy people! Why can't they just throw away the minced meat when it's gotten spoiled, NO, instead they fry & eat it!"

Remembering an incident that happened to our family in 1992, I said.:"Maybe their deep freezer 'died' or their electricity got cut while they are on a vacation, like it happened to us."

Mother argued that.:"You know how many times people in this apartment complex have cooked food that even a hungry pig wouldn't touch! Just go into the hallway at afternoon when some of them cook. 50% of it smells like it has already been eaten and such." She laughed again.

It was true... there are a few flats, whose doors you shouldn't cross on your way through the hallway. These women are only capable to work properly in the shopping, sex & drinking area.
I mean, it's not that hard to throw out money, spread your legs &- open your beer bottle... but foof? -That's almost Alchemy!<\sarcasmend>

Later my second oldest brother came over, he was going to go doing the bigger groceries with my mother for the weekend, while I did some vacuum-cleaning. Something that is hard to do while my ~~Dragon~~beloved Mother is around. :)

They had been on their way for barely 5 minutes, when my father had to answer the phone. After telling me to stop the vacuum, he gave me the phone handset.
It was my mother, telling me to not open the door to our flat, and that if someone of us was to leave, we should open & close the door as fast as possible. And get out of the hallways fast, too! She further told me to not be upset if the police would knock on the door.

She knows how much I dislike our police, I sometimes feel that they are the 'arm' of our 4'th Reich we're living in now, just that this times it is the muslims, turks & arabs who might be gassed instead of the jews, if they so much as peep! -And since our police is a bunch of fashists anway, I get weird whenever they are around me.
But they didn't come, instead I would hear kids screaming in the hallways, and men telling them loudly to clear the halls & go home.

A little over 2 hours later my mother & brother rang the door bell & father went downstairs to help them. I was cleared of duty, 'cause my hips & back already ached enough from cleaning up the place, yes... ;)

5 minutes later my mother banged on the door & told me to hurry. Me being someone who gets easily freaked out, 'ran' to the door and opened it, getting the full load thanks to the air draught the door created.
Holy motherf**king sh*te! :S I ushered my parents & sibling in, almost fainting then & there.

So, what had happened?
A neighbour, 60 years old & all on her own & lonely, living in this apartment complex had died a few weeks ago(we don't know how many, but judging by the smell, it was some time).
The turkish neighbour next door to her(and on the same floor) did smell something whenever she passed the door on her way out, and had had a phone call with the absentee landlords' his apartment-manager, who himself was on vacation at that time, and told her to wait a few weeks until he would be back.

But on that Friday the odour got foul enough that people could smell it all through the house. A women who had moved into the flat(on my parents floor) right above the (dead)neighbour's, had opened her window & caught a very bad whiff from the open window from underneath her.

She called the Manager, too, but when he told HER this time to wait until he would be back in a few days, she threatened him with the police & hung up the phone.

3 hours later the police had broken the door to the dead neighbour while another policeman sharply reprimanded the apartment-manager for not doing his dutry earlier! Oh, how sweet was it to watch the manager squirm under the police's harsh words. He's a wannabe, and even scares & intimidates the tenants when they call out for their rights & ask him to do his duty.
I swear, it was a jerk-fest for everyone here!

But now to what is troubling me out of this all. No one knows if she died of a neutral cause, or if she was ill. Or if she killed herself!
This woman has no living relatives, she was adopted by her parents, whom have been dead themselves for sometime now. She also has no exes & no kids of her own.
Father says, she was introverted & didn't like to go out too much. He would talk to her sometimes while going for a walk. And she would sometimes, in a moment of extreme sadnees, tell him that she did not see a reason to live anymore. (he only told us about this, he doesn't want people in the street to spin their stories out of it)
My mother is upset about it, too. Telling me, that if the germans weren't such cold & distant people, someone might have helped her. Whether she died out of an illness or suicide.
Both my parents are looking in the newspapers now(almost everyday) if anybody might write an article about the lady. But nothing has been written so far, as if she never had existed! :c

I don't know what to make out of this myself, it scares me how everyone asks anyone who comes out of this house now, if they knew the dead woman. How & why she died... such vultures!
In the past days & even now I catch sometimes a whiff of the dead woman, no matter where I am & it sickens me! I know it is an olfactory hallucination, but it feels so real!

And on top of that, whenever I think of her, I have an image in my head of rotten minced-meat in the shape of a gingerbread man. I know it's kind of morbid & macabre, but that's my shitty brain & its way of making fun of me. :(
I just hope she is doing better now, wherver she is.

Yours,
Nokta

P.S.: Thank you to all of you who crossed their fingers for me on the 2'n of June 2010! ❤ I did it!

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Books, hiatus & vroom!

2010-05-27T15:23:00.006+02:00

So what happened in these past 3 weeks, since I updated the last time?
-Well...

I.
I found & donwloaded a new 3D-Program. It is freeware!
And thanks to another Blogger's post a few days ago, I jumped from one link to another and found some 3D freebies from a interieurs manufacturer & shop.

II.
I found a book by accident in our public Library, fell in love with it from the first page!
This is his debut and he is a good writer, so I instantly became a fan.
Beware, this is the german version. The original, english Title of it is "Jinn". You should read it, it is a very varied read... horror, thriller, mystery, detective & crime are just a few genres you could put this in. :)
Dämon by Matthew B.J. Delaney

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

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III.
My eldest brother emigrated to Turkey & is having a great time over there. :)

IV.
A tiny tyre squeal for mankind, a huge blast for me... XD
A few days ago I drove the car constantly at 165km/h (yup, that's ≈ 102.53mph) on the Autobahn, which is my newest speed-record now.

V.
I have to take a hiatus from blogging until (at minimum) next Thursday, the 3'rd of June.
I will also try to read the blogs from the past few days since I had not enough time to visit your blogs, sorry for that. :C
I hope you have a nice time!

Yours,
Nokta

P.S.: On the 2'nd of June 2010, I ask all of you to cross your fingers for me, please. :) I will need it!

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Un-unrelated Stories I - Blue Phase

2010-05-06T23:41:00.003+02:00

It can happen at any time, I wake up and my favourite colour changes for the next few, months, years... it happens in irregular intervals! I can never *assess* it, the beginnings & the ends of those phases melt into each other. The longest Phases were my Royal Blue from 1995 - 1999 & my Chartreuse from 2003 - 2007. :)

My current Phase started at the end of Autumn 2007 and is Blue, I lean towards Medium Blue.

It all goes like this. In these phases, I tend to use & buy/collect clothes, footwear, accessoiries, shawls, handbags and/or jewellery in this colour. (Also those hues which are adjacent, or a nuance of that shade.)

Example...
Those Bordeaux-Red FILA trainers I bought in spring 2001, when I was in my bordeaux phase, I wore them as often as possible. When it was time to clean them up, I bought another pair of trainers from a no-name(as we call them here) Brand, which I wore while my FILA's were drying and/or in addition to more formal trousers, 'cause they were more slim & feminin, and changeât(like Taffeta, a timeless fevourite of mine).
I loved them!
From that time I still own a lot of brodeaux, changeât wallets, purses & handbags. :D And I still use them, though they do not appeal visually that much to me nowadays.

Just a few weeks ago I bought myself a Hobo Bag with a colour that is a mixture between midnight blue & midnight green. I guess it was also a compromise between my blue phase & the remainders of my chartreuse phase... as an 'homage' maybe? ;)

Eyeshadow, Mascara, main accents & even artistic outpours at that time are heavily influenced by which phase I am in.
At college, later at work & even privately people sometimes would notice & ask me about it, and i would feel weird & stupid about it, but I could & can not change this habit. :D
Has anybody of you a quirk like this? Or as I call them, moments of madness.
If yes, then to what extent? -I would really like to know.

I do not try to say, that other colours do not look good to me or that I do not respond to them. Or that I literally walk around monotonous.
Still, they are very dominant, even at those time, when I only use them as an accentuation to mainly black or grey clothes.
:)

Yours,
Nokta

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It has been 2 Years now...

2010-05-01T00:46:00.007+02:00

It was a Wednesday, the 30'th of April 2008, the Day I last ate meat. :)

A day later, the 1'st of May, I woke up & had breakfast without any Süçük or other meaty food.

At first I thought, I might eat a bit of Poultry every 7 days. But when the 7'th day came I wasn't even interested in it and went straight for my Soya-Margarine, home-made bread with some cheese & lots of raw button mushrooms, as if I had always been an ovo-lacto-vegetarian.

And though I have always been very mindful of what I eat, after becoming a vegetarian I doubled my effort.
Did I know & love healthy food before, like...
peas, mung beans, shiitake, kale, broccoli, cashews, bulgur, yoğurt, chard, pistachios, aubergines, walnuts, Quark & common mushrooms.
Then now came the time to find more food to like & eat... and I am still searching for more to eat.
Food like Amaranth & Quinoa are next on my list.

Another added bonus is, that vegetables, nuts, & fruits taste different to me now.
As if my gustatory nerves had been rewritten... Tabula Rasa, so to speak.

Some food that I used to dislike as a kid, like Okra, Taro & Zucchini, taste ok or even great now.
:)
My diet still sucks, but I hope I will be able to improve the eating habits in 'my' 3'rd year.

I guess, that's it for today! :D
The links are for those people who do not know the mentioned food & because I had nothing else to do right now.
And yes, I know grown men & women, which have never heard of Kale, Bulgur or Aubergines.

Yours,
Nokta

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To reuse or not to reuse! No question...

2010-04-11T18:15:00.006+02:00

This seems to be a very productive weekend so far! (In more than one ways)
And my frugal/thrifty heart is happy, too. C:

Yesterday I was being all crafty.... and sawed out three pieces with an electric saw, to produce a laptop table/tray. I started late in the evening with the project, so I had to postpone the sanding & screwing(all parts together) onto next Saturday.
It stared with last Month, when my mother was about to throw away a table in her kitchen, which she got from a neighbour 14 years ago. I asked her if she would give me its black tabletop made out of chipboard, it is 80cm in diameter so I will have plenty of material to use, and she agreed.

But what made me most happy, was the possibility to reuse resources. The table was 15+ years old and the screws, I hopefully will use next Weekend to put it all together, are about 10 years old and from an old piece of furniture that had to be thrown away some time ago.

There is no need to buy something manufactured in a factory, if it is easy to create by yourself! -I am talking of DIY here.
-You say... "But I cannot saw! Lulz!"
-I say... "Ask a sibling or someone else close to you, for those parts in which you lack the skills!"

For example, at a tricky part yesterday, I asked one of my brothers to saw a piece off of the 'legs'. You see, it has been 9.5 years now that I used and electric saw and on top of it the tabletop was black-black, so it was hard to see the actual line which I had drawn with my pencil, and I became a bit unsure at one part.
...Mother Nature will thank you! ;)

Oh, and while we are at Nature and such. I am thinking of installing a little (home) Herb-Garden in a corner of my balcony or the kitchen counter.
The prices for herbs like Sage, Verbena & Thyme are far too high in my opinion if you take into account, that the contents taste too vapid, due to the sachets of herbs being already old when you buy them!
Maybe that way I can also make my Veggie-Burgers taste like food... ;)

I was going to write about something else, too, but I forgot what it was about. The weather changes every few hours in this past days so I am having a continuous headache. *bleh*

Yours,
Eco Chick Extraordinaire <3

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Going bald & the Sunshine Award

2010-04-01T23:50:00.008+02:00

Well, I cut all 85cm of my hair, and am bald now!
My head feels so light, this was the fastest diet ever! :D
But my face looks weird, now that I have no hair on my head! ;)
We will see tomorrow what my Family says...

Edit on 04.04.2010 - Aprils Fools' Day... ;)
I did not cut my hair!

On to the next stuff...

So I got my second Award, it is the 'Sunshine Award' which I got from Jesse! ^_^;

The rules are as follows.:
01. Put the logo in your post or within your blog.
02. Pass the award on to 12 fellow bloggers.
03. Link the nominees within your post.
04. Let the nominees know they have received this award by leaving a comment on their blogs.
05. Share the love and link to the person who gave you the award.

I ch...ch...choose.: (only 7)
01. rangr
02. theBluesman
03. Kevin Atteridg
04. Pinecone Camp
05. Kass
06. Jo
07. Captain D.

Thank you for being part of it and participating!

Para... what? Is that Spanish?

2010-03-21T05:45:00.006+01:00

After watching the Paralympics as much as is possible on the net, far away from Vancouver, and reading about it in another blog here...

Wait scratch that first line... I love the Paralympics!
Why?
It was around 6 o'clock in Ocotber, early 90'ties, the evening before my Birthday. I had problems walking for about 2 weeks and my father came home from my new GP, with my newest X-Rays.
He told me to stop walking, I sat down onto the couch and dad called my mom from to kitchen to join us. Both my brothers sat down, too, and that weird feeling in my belly that I had for a few days got worse by the second.

I was told that early in the morning on my birthday an Ambulance would take me to the Hospital, and that before the end of the week, I(my hips) would either get 'fixated' to weights for 6 Months or that I would undergo Surgery.

2 days after my B-Day, the Professor-Surgeon & two other Doctors had coaxed my parents into signing the Surgery on me.
I was in Surgery 4.5 hours, and almost died a 'few times'. Afterwards, I would lie unusually long in the 'Aufwachraum' as we call it here, literally the wake-up-room. There I almost died twice, by choking on my own vomit!

I stopped believing in God after the first Surgery.
...and 3 Years later I had to undergo a second Surgery...

After both Surgeries, I was confined to a wheel-chair & later bound to Forearm-Crutches... all in all for about 1.5 Years!
There were times, when I wished to just die!

Now, I walk on my own two feet, and if you wouldn't know it, you would never believe that I had a problem at all! You might perhaps wonder, why I never walk fast or run, but a Surgery? -No one would believe it! ;)

So... I watched people playing hockey two days ago, people who need a wheel-chair in their everyday life and I loved watching them, it was better than ordinary ice-hockey. One canadian hockey-player got his legs amputated as an 18-months old baby, right up to his hips! But he did play like hell! :)

Their disabilities are much worse than mine. Some cannot see, some cannot walk & some cannot hear.
The mere thought of being deaf scares the hell out of me, I would not be able to listen to music! *shudders*

That's why I like the Paralympics more than the Olympics!
Those people should get more recognition! End of Story! ;)

Bye,
Nokta

P.S.: I wish I could answer you comments here in the same manner, like I can on LiveJournal, that way you could read my answers to what you say through a notice... :/

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snore What, hmm...?

2010-03-16T00:31:00.005+01:00

First of all, sorry for being away so long & not reading your blogs, I am catching up, reading them all day! 8D

So...
I mentioned in passing that I was taking driving lessons, right? Let it be said, driving is just not my forte... :)
My mom's weeping at the mere thought of me driving, telling me that she & her father(my grandpa) are from a family of car-loving people who drive like they were born to do it 24/7. Sorry mama, for disappointing you...
My driving teacher hides it well, but I think I scare the shite out of her when we drive & she must be quite happy that she has the brake pedal under her foot, too!
Not to mention the poor 'schooling-car' I violate in my lessons. You should hear the ugly sounds of that unfortunate motor.

Until last Spring I vehemently refused to get my driving license, always resorting to walking, riding a bike or driving by bus & train. I just don't like the thought of using an air-polluting vehicle just so I can travel comfortably to my destination.

But life's getting hectic as hell in the past months, me not getting younger despite of what I'm telling myself & some health-problems getting severe again, I gave in.

And man, is it pricy to get a driving license where I live, my Country tries to squeeze as much money as possbile out of you, before you even start your driving school.
Not to mention the (wannabe-)biometric passport photograph, for the actual driver's license. I had to buy them in a six-pack, paying 20€ minimum, even though I only need one for the license. And I look like shite in them, too! D:
I already paid 850 € +- 50€ until now and still have to pay around 600 for some lessons I will drive in the coming days & the test.

Ooh, and I am thinking about something I should do when I am done & bought my car... maybe I should write in our Town's bi-weekly newspaper, the time & date of when I need to drive, one week ahead. For example doing my & my parents groceries or when I have to drive my parents to the GP or something else that's too far for them, just to make sure that people won't be on the streets, saving their lives in the process... ;)

Tomorrow it's another 90 minutes of driving, maybe I'll stay alive & we'll read each others blogs in the future...
'til then, bye!

Yours,
Nokta

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How come, my blood isn't brown? :Đ

2010-02-22T11:16:00.005+01:00

My parents made an egoistical mistake when they married.
You see, in Germany it was okay for a german woman to marry a non-german man, and to even have children with him.
Then there were the few fools who would marry a dutch, british or even an italian woman. That also was, to a certain degree, ok in Germany.
But a german man couldn't just marry a woman from Turkey, China or some weird Country like that.
Yet... father did so, he took the hot turkish Tourist as his wife.
So my two brothers and I had to suffer for it... *bleh*

Now to the actual Story... ;)
One evening, I was 3 or 4 maybe, father came home from work,. Doing manual labour & the commute on top was exhausting, so my mother would 'order' him to stay seated in his chair while she brought the dishes & the meal onto the dining table.
My brothers would also not move, because they were boys, and I?
I sat on fathers lap until my mother would seat herself, too, only then I would go & sit down on my own chair.
Sitting on fathers lap was the best part of the day, except when mother and I would have breakfast alone while everyone was at work & school.

That evening everyone was a bit lazy, mother had cut her finger while peeling the onions & I had seen her red blood flowing... remember I was circa 3.

I asked my father why my blood was not brown... you heard right, why was it not brown?
Everyone laughed at me. Mother, father & my two older brothers.

Now, why would I say this?
My mother was naturally tanned, and come next Summer she would get an even more pronunced tan & when she was younger the veins underneath her skin were almost not visible.
But my father was light skinned, with ash-blonde hair & light green eyes. His veins 'popping' out in a greenish-blue on the back of his strong hands. And I hadn't seen him actually bleeding...

I mean, everybody in our neighbourhood would say that me and my siblings were different.
(Behind mom's & dad's back only of course)
And since I had seen a fews days before on educational television, that if you mix more than 2 primary colours you got brown out of it.
The german's typical everyday racism confused me even more, because in everyones eyes we were different & somehow people made me think my siblings & me, we were 'wrong'.
So green(dad) + red(mom) = brown...(me & my siblings), right?

I explained my thoughts to them & my mother stopped laughing. Only muttering that she hated the moment her plane landed on german Soil. :/

I still bleed red when I accidentally cut myself. And everytime I do such a mistake, I remember the moment one childish question bursting my bubble. This bubble consisted me, my siblings, my parents & my beautiful country.

These days I dislike Germany. For my taste, there are too many Germans in this Country.

By the way, questions like that made me the family clown from a very young age, my family laughed a lot because of me & the stuff I would say. I always spoke my mind.
And most of the time, they would stay silent afterwards, when it hit them, what I was really saying in my way. :D

Well, I had to write this down...
Ciao...

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Let me put my hands around your throat & gently squeeze you, dear!

2010-02-16T03:42:00.004+01:00

I'm a person who, if she gets furious, acts in extremes. It's either black or white, there are no shades of grey.
If someone argues with me & hurts me, there are only two options, either I hit them in the face after using a few swearwords regarding their ancestory or sexual preferences & habits or I use the silent treatment and walk away. The latter happens mostly if the person is related to me. :D

Yet the fights don't happen often these days, I have been more peaceful for the last years, something no one from my childhood would believe if you told them. But I can get weird, if I have to.

Let's take a step back to late Summer 1993 for a moment.
When I was about 11, I went to a Gymnasium, there one day I asked a classmate from South Africa, what she thought about people who use the cold shoulder or silent treatment, she answered, that she believed the person who uses these methods must be heartless. O...'kay!?

Well, back to January 2010.
To be more precise, the 12'th of January. My mother is being... well she's being herself.
And we had a very huge fight. She won't listen to any word I say.
You see, in my mother's eyes to be a grown & knowledgable woman you have to be married, have at least one child, & must have build a house with your bare hands and/or on your own(everything she had done by the time she was 19, literally), then... and only then can you say something that she might actually listen to... might!

I was fed up and screamed at her, then it clicked inside me. I set up the big red-brick wall in my mind & left her standing alone in the dining room. Starting my silent treatment on that day.

Until today.
34 days no talking to her & not listening when she would talk with me.
And not eating if she did cook something delicious for me, and that one actually hurt me more than her huge ego!!! :D

Then, this noon I saw her lying on the couch in the sitting room, moaning in pain, she had been sick a few times since the morning... and my heart ached. *sniffle*
Father told me, that she refused to eat all day because she was afraid of getting sick again.
I made her eat something, I'm still mad at her mind you, but she had to eat!

It hurt seeing her like that, I just had to talk a little bit to her, though I did behave a bit gruff. I mean, at least I did try, right?
After all I wanted nothing more than to shake her, and pick up the argument where we left it last time, something along the lines of:"You *peep* woman, why won't you f**king listen to me!? *Peep* you & your *peep*'ing family's thickheadedness... *Peep*, you*re so *peep*... *peep* *peep *peeeeeeep*!"
But I didn't, instead I stuffed her face with food & made her some Camomile Tea! <3

Let's see what tomorrow brings, if she's being a thorn in the back as soon as she feels better, I might reconsider a new round of the silent treatment.

What I was trying to say is, I am not really heartless. I love her. But this woman just knows which buttons she has to push. And there are moments where I just ask myself if she does it for fun or something.

I have the slight feeling, this post makes me sound like a bad person. D:
Oops, it's 5:20am & I need at least 4 hours of sleep before I have to start the new project today.

Goodnight,
Nokta

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Excited & Canada(PartI)

2010-02-11T17:44:00.005+01:00

One more Day! :) I am so excited, so absolutely excited! -Why?

For a fortnight I will watch the Winter Olympics in Vancouver, Canada on the TV & Net.

I adore Canada
I love Winter
I like the Olympics

Canada... remember the first time I watched a canadian Horror Movie, I was 3 or 4? It's been so long ago, but the Movie was awesome, so gory! I only remember how people would run into a hotel, trying to get as high as possible, and as far away as possible away from the infected(?) ones who would puke strange stuff, it was from the late 70'ties or early 80'ties. and was there Donald Sutherland in it? I really cannot remember, only thing I know is, the Movie was so entertaining & I enjoyed it!

Then I remember, the Summer of 1987, we were in Turkey for 3 Months and I had bought my first own Cassette from Queen Both my older Brothers & I would listen to Madonna's 'True Blue Album' & Johnny Logan's 'Hold Me Now Album'.
We were watching the 2'nd World Championships in Athletics in Rome, and I was screaming at the top my Lungs for the one and only Ben Johnson. Who was, you guessed right, Canadian (well he was born Jamaican, but I only saw the tiny canadian Flag beside his Name) ;)

Around 1989 my Mother got sent a huge Lexicon of the World from Reader's Digest, it was more like a Tome(I can easily give you an Traumatic Brain Injury with it), I still have it lying at the bottom of one of my bookshelves. It's outdated but you can find some Countries, Cities & Flags that are not anymore. ^_^;

When my mother opened the big Package that contained it, I opened the Book and searched for Canada, not finding it first, because I had forgotten that in Germany we write it like this -> Kanada.
Searching it at the letter C & asking my Mother what kind of stupid Lexicon it was if it had not one of the biggest Countries of the World in it, I laughed a second later when I realised what was wrong!
For weeks I would read about this beautiful Country, there even were some big photographs from turkish, canadian & german Places, it made me happy.

I was a child but intelligent enough to know that Canada was further away from my Home than Turkey already was. And back then we had no Internet, only german BTX, which wasn't really useful as is the internet, and terribly expensive on top! :D

So I started reading everything I could get my hands one about Canada.
They made good Movies, Captain Kirk was one, well more like the Actor but... :D
They had awesome Weather (Yes, I think mostly cold Weather is awesome!!!)
& Great Sports, with lots of Fights in them! <3
Also they have gorgeous Flora & Fauna!!!

*sighs* Rereading this Entry I have to laugh, can any english speaking individual even understand one word when I get excited.
I have the feeling I use german idioms & grammar sometimes, and that I digress too much, sorry. ;) I still hope you get what i mean.

So, if you have the time to comment, what do you think of my Interpretation of the Olympic Flag at the top of this Blog-Entry? It took me 20 Minutes & I think in some way it is much better than the real one! XD ...And sorry for all the Links in this Post, I just had so much fun including some.

Yours,
Nokta

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I got the Happy Award!

2010-02-07T17:13:00.006+01:00

I was one of those awarded by the lovely Jesse last evening. Thank you. :)

What you have to do.:

1. Link the blogger who gave you the award on your post...

2. Write 10 things that make you happy...

3. Share it with at least 10 friends...

My happy list.:

1. It makes me happy whenever I learn a new Language(or parts of it) & a new Writing System...

2. It makes me happy when I can listen to lots of Music! Music is like Air to me...

3. It makes me happy as soon as the Weather gets colder and there's Rain, Fog, harsh Winds and/or Snow...

4. It makes me happy when my Muse strikes me & I am able to create new Art...

5. It makes me always happy when my Dog, the Cats & our Bird are happy. Especially my Dog, he is my Baby...

6. It makes me happy to do some traditional Crafts by hand every now & then, just because I can...

7. It makes me happy when I reach an important Point in my Life...

8. It makes me happy when I am able to be lazy, just lounging & daydreaming...

9. It makes me happy when I can read Books or watch Movies that are scary, gory and/or horror...

10. It makes me happy on the rare occasions when I feel uterrly tranquil & serene...

Now I tag... (in no special order)
01. rangr
02. nobu
03. calicolyst
04. theBluesman
05. Muza-chan
06. DUTA
07. Kevin Atteridg
08. ruma2008
09. Pinecone Camp
10. Kass

Palindrome Date anyone?

2010-02-01T18:56:00.008+01:00

Yup, today it is the First of February in the Year 2010.
01.02.2010

Which means, this Date is a Palindrome, at least in Countries like mine where we write the Date like this. :)

Palindrome, this word makes me laugh, it sounds like an abbreviation for Palin Syndrome.
I would even know how to spot this... Symptoms might include...

01. Lots of different weird glasses
02. Funny hairdo with an even funnier side parting. (which

accidentally coincides on which side to wear, with a
certain well known german ~~Dictator~~ Politician)

03. An unsettling 'Plastic Smile'
04. So much make-up/foundation/concealer, you won't be able

to see a single pore

05. Cheap colourised hair strands
06. Wearing Costumes/Suits with shoulder pads (you know, I

liked the 80'ties, really... the emphasis
lies on the Preterite of 'to like')

07. Failing in raising their own infants
08. Even more hideous 90's make-up

I think there might be a few more, but I'll drop it for now.

Yeah, well, Palindrome Day.
Which ends in a few hours, so good night y'all... C:

Some Stock/Resources... and as always... download, use, hafe fun & credit me!

20090502 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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20090504 - 02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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20090504 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

637 Days

2010-01-27T03:51:00.005+01:00

I just realised, that today is the 637'th Day of me being an Ovo-Lacto-Vegetarian.
Initially, I never thought I would stay one for so long. Becoming a vegeterian was more like seeking a solution to stop these stomach pains I kept having & to maybe even loose some weight.

Well, the plan actually just worked out 30%, as I haven't lost that much weight and I still have the stomach pains every now & then, but I do not think I want to eat meat again.

Just 2 Days ago I ate Veggy-Burgers consisting wheat & rice flour, onion, carrots & soy... and16 Days ago I ate Veggy-Sausages consisting Broccoli, Wheat flour & a few legumes for the first time.
I have to say the Burgers were terrible and I felt a bit sick afterwards, and I still have a pack in my Refrigerator & am too frugal to throw them away.
But the Sausages, aside from being a tad too salty, they were quite... yummy! :D I believe, I might buy them again.

And whenever I miss grilld, spiced Poultry, I just take a slice of self-baked Bread, heat it in the Toaster for 30 Seconds, spread some Butter on it & season it with Chicken-Spice.
Because, the Spice & Fat is actually what you(and I) truly miss.

I am done, must go to bed & read, then sleep. Must! ;)

Night...

As per usual, the free Resources/Stocks at the end of the Blog. Use + have fun + Credit! ;)

Nostaljik Sepia by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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LT-001 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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Coiled by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Did I mention how much I hate GPs? coughs

2010-01-05T02:54:00.008+01:00

Not only did one of them ruin my life because he was a fucked up liar, a drug addict who looked like a pimp with his curly hair-do & his gold necklace (plus fitting gold bracelet), who came to my Country without a real Diploma.

No, that's not the only Reason... but... over 60% of the general practitioners in our Country tell you one thing first, no matter what your physical ailment might be. Whether it sounds severe or not... the first sentence you'll hear from them is.:"You're only imagining this. :)"
Everyone's a born Hypochondriac to them, period!

A slight cough... you're imagining it.
Pneumonia........ you're imagining...
sprained hand.... you're imagine...
dead............. you're... *whoops*

And my GP is still in his Holidays, AND because I am not a whiny pussy who runs every second day to my doctor, I haven't been to him since June 2009, so I wasn't able to ask him HOW F**KING LONG he will be away this time....

Now I'm sitting here on my bed, not able to really focus for a single Second, postponing my current Project for the second week, too, and he's somewhere with his Family... and only he knows when he'll be back!
You know why? -'Cause a PG takes as much free days in a calendrical Year as they want. Just like that.

My doc is in the centre of our town, even though there is a GP barely 400 metres away from me... and you know why? Because this woman, calling herself a Doctor, has her surgery/office closed circa 360 days of the Year... that's why I have to walk to my GP for 40 minutes, even if I feel like shite & would like nothing more than to cry like a baby!
<7rantend>

Hach.. I believe, I ranted the cerebral Aneurysm, that was about to form inside me, into non-existence.... I feel a bit better now.

G'night...

Today I got 4 free Stocks/Resources for you... use, have fun... and please credit, will you!? ;)

20090412 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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Twisted Braid by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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Tre Knot by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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Uneven Closed Braid by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

In flu Enza

2010-01-03T03:51:00.005+01:00

Okay...!?
Is anyone able to tell me, why the time stamp of my last post yesterday, is set on the 22'nd of December 2009?
Ah, forget it... I don't really want to know!

I.
I am slowly feeling better, but still having the Flu.
In 2 days I'll go to visit my Doc and that will be it! :D

II.
In other News, I had my first practical driving lessons, but thanks to the aforementioned Flu I had to stop after only 270 minutes of driving!
I will write about it more thoroughly tomorrow.

III.
I started reading more regularly again in the past few weeks. I do 1 book minimum in 9 Days, just like before.
I had forgotten how much fun it was to read a few pages every noon & evening!

Okay, I really need to go to bed again, still feeling a little bit groggy.

Night to you all. ;)

A few digital Yummies for you! Use, credit properly & have fun creating!

TgS-06 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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TgS-07 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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TgS-08 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

A happy new Year to all of you out there! :3

2009-12-22T18:09:00.006+01:00

I had to rewrite this Entry in the middle of completition because I am feeling worse again, this Flu that I have is harder to beat than I thought first and it looks as if I have to go to the Doc next Monday. :/
I'll make this Entry short & to the point...

I wish you all a happy & healthy new Year.
Also I wish to everyone, that you will be able to fulfill your Dreams, or at least take a few new steps of the Road to your Dreams! :)

Tomorrow I will try to write another, and hopefully longer, Journal.
And, of course I will be more online again, as well as start reading your blogs more often.
I'm sorry I wasn't doing that more frequently last Year, but Time was very tight most of 2009!

Bye for now...

As always, digital Resources free to use for you all. Have fun & credit me... ;)

TgS-05 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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20090401 - 02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART
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20090401 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviantART

Meme snagged from theBluesman and freebies, too!

2009-08-25T20:21:00.004+02:00

I saw this one on someone else's Blog that I frequently visit, and thought I might give it a try...

My hair, very-long
My mom, sleeping
My dad, smoking
My favourite thing, reading
My dream last night, awesome
My dream goal, peace
My favourite drink, water
The room I’m in now, bedroom
My ex-, job? ;)
My main hobby, art
My fear, spiders
Where do I want to be in 10 years, Canada (let me dream a bit 'kay)
What do I want to be in 10 years, happy
Where was I last night, bed
What am I not, lucky
Muffins? selfmade
One of my wish list items, Canon-EOS-50D
Time now? 20:23
Where I grew up, Germany
The last thing I did, drink
Favourite weather, rainy
What am I wearing now, sportswear
My favourite book, horror
My tv favourite, sci-fi
My pet, dog
My computer, msi
My mood, Blue
Missing someone, no
My car, none
Something I’m not wearing, hair-stick :D
Favourite store, book-store
Love someone, who? none
My favourite colour, Blue
Last thing I ate, Cornflakes
My life, unsatisfying
My friends, few
What am I thinking right now, food
What am I doing at this moment, listening
My summer, hot²
My relationship status, single
What do I do when I can’t sleep, sudoku
When is the last time I laughed, wednesday?
Last time I cried, today
When is this going to end, End!

Whoa, was harder than I thought to answer with only one word... :o

Here some new(old) Stocks/Resources... and as always... download, use & credit! :D

20090330 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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20090330 - 02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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Sl*ts turn to good Wives - Part I

2009-08-12T06:29:00.006+02:00

I was talking a few days ago online to a girl back from school. It was the first time after a little over 9 years. Turns out she is married to an awesome guy (with a very good salary apparently)now, owns a big house & and has a beautiful kid.

My first thought was, Who the f*ck would marry you? -Every boy in the city had you at least once from a very, very early age. You are born to be a sl*t for goodness sake!
Even for our western standards you are a wh*re of the worst sort...

Believe me dear ~~Victim~~Reader, whatever you saw on various porn-sites in the internet, she has done all of it, yes even that thing where you look like you're doing a Somersault... but actually aren't! D:

So, when I asked her exactly that, you know... "who would marry you" & such (have always been honest with people that I thought of as filth even if they were my friends at some time) she laughed... or better, she wrote this -> *ROFL*

Rofl! Rofl? -Of course that was when it hit me & I asked her non-chalantly if the husband is from our city.
Well.... he isn't! -What a surprise? -Not so much.
I won't tell you from where exactly he is, but he comes from the other end of Germany. -Which is far away in our standards.
Just for comparison, take the USA map (without Alaska & Hawaii), rotate it 90° to the right.
Now if Dallas, Texas is in the left (that would be approximately our hometown) then he comes from somewhere around Seattle, Washington.

Aha... was my first thought! That's why he married her, the Idiot doesn't know about the many BF's, the threesome(s), the naked table dancing(s), the lesbian relationships (after she had every boy and even a few older guys), all the times she cheated on them (both BF's & GF's) & all the other good Reasons for an immediate divorce. O-kay!? ^_^

I'll just lay back & wait how long it will take until she cheats on him, if she isn't already doing so. Believe me, I know her better than her own mother does.

One of the things that always piss me off about these Sl*ts is simple, they get the guy!
While I am someone who feels awesome 90% of the time being Single, I still guess there are others from my friends who weren't such big sl*ts in school and they haven't found their husbands/SO-for-live... maybe because they lack this certain slut*ness!?

'kay.... enough procrastination, I need to work now. But I'm not done yet with this whole "S turns good W", just in case you didn't see the whole "Part I" in the Title.

Bye for now! :D

Again 3 new Stock/Resources... Have fun, use them well and do credit me properly!

Starfield and red Nebulae by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

TgS-03 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

TgS-04 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Certain things....

2009-08-08T00:30:00.003+02:00

...have to change, or at least I want them to change.

I would like to start using this Blog for writing down my thoughts, too, every now and then. Of course I still will post Resource & Stocks at the end of each Entry but I'd like to write about the things that make me think somtimes.
I hope that those few who actually read my Blog will be ok with it.

Also, beginnning with today, I'll post 3 Resources/Stocks for the next 10 Blog-Entries. I have 29 unposted Pieces in all since my last post on Blogger this February.

Btw, is it just me or was Blogger being uncooperative again today? -I was trying to read other people's blog, but could not enter a blog, not even my own. Google stating that my Compi was sending something against their Terms of Use. :(
Well, whatever...

Bye & as always...

.... download, use, have fun with them & credit me properly! ;)

20090223 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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20090319 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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TgS-02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Insert funky Title here, plz!

2009-08-06T02:49:00.005+02:00

Let me tell you one thing first, you guys are amazing. C:
All your comments to my last Post were very helpful & appreciated!
Thanks to a suggestion from one of you I made the text a lighter blue, so as to being easier to read. Though, if that is still too dark I might change it to a light Silver-Blue at a later date.
Also I put a semi transparent image onto my blog's background, I hope it isn't too distracting.

Then there's the whole Portfolio thingy, I made one via DA, I thought that until my own Homepage is revamped & online again, I should have at least this mini Porfolio online...
Please take a Visit & be in awe, cause my work doesn't suck, for real! :D
Here's the Link -> My Portfolio @ DA
Come back & tell me what you think if you can spare the time, ok? ;)
(And, yes. I do realise I haven't written a Bio yet)

Right now I am working on a few Stocks & Resources, it's nice with this new Laptop, though it isn't as perfect as the last one, yet it's also not as faulty as the last one either. :/
I guess that's it for now, I still have to do some work & a Rooibos-Vanilla Tea wouldn't be bad either.

Bye, then... and Night!

Btw, before I forget to tell you. I have been asked this a few times on the Net, why I always write in different colours and/or fonts when I do a Blog-Entry. It's because I have problems re-reading the written stuff when everything is one big, uniform coloumn. :( Sorry, if it is a bit annoying to you.

Here's my 'newest', or rather latest work... I just made it for fun and not to win the Contest. ;)

Chalice by ~PinkPanthress on deviant ART

Long time no see!

2009-07-24T02:27:00.005+02:00

Today I was going to write down why exactly I wasn't able to post and read all the blogs I follow for the last few months but some things were to private & the net just isn't the right place to write every little personel think of you. But in the coming entries I'll try to tell a few of the reasons that are ok.

Let's just say I'm glad to write something at all again. It soothes my mind.
I think that's it for now. Bye...

Btw, do you like my new header or is it sh**ty?

V-Day, oh noez!

2009-02-14T22:58:00.002+01:00

Truthfully I am not really for this Tohu-va-Bohu. I dislike Valentines Day immensely...
Yet as fate would have it, I accidentally did 'create' this with Apo... :(

Le grá go deo by ~PinkPanthress on deviant ART

And here are 3 new Stock/Resources suiting todays 'theme'...
Have fun, use them and do credit properly!
And No, they do not look the same. You have to download them each via the download button on the left to get them, for free, and then you will see their differences!

20090214 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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20090214 - 02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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20090214 - 03 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Bye, bye for now!

P.S.: I had a very nice, anti-V-Day rant but my Computer ate it or something like that!

12022009! 7?

2009-02-12T21:41:00.002+01:00

Today I found this!

Oh, and... there is no God! *booh*

Procrastination...

2009-02-07T01:50:00.004+01:00

...is a very bad thing to do.
So I was working on my Homepage, or shall I say on the images that I have
to put into the code later, that was when I started playing with some of my softwares, and playing I did. After 3 Days I had created a few Commishs and my new, not really wow but who cares, ID for DA. In these Days I learned that using Folders in the Layer Window is very good. I mean very, very good, more like awesome. I was able to work more effectively and I believe I made real progress in learning how to manage all the different Layers and their Masks. Also I used my nifty World Machine to create a more than adequate Terrain for Terragen.
Had lots of fun with it and after a Day of break I'll resume the work on my Homepage, really!
Oh, and if you wonder what all these image do here, I was playing around also here on my Blogger, just to see how this whole Picture thing works. Those images are a few of the resources I used to create my ID. And except those 2 images with the curls in them it was all my own.
I hope this is not too hard to read but I was enjoying myself so much doing this, it was very hard to stop with it! I promise this will never happen again! ^_^;

Also the Clouds I used are my newest Stocks/Resources I'll give away for free! :D

Use and have fun!

Tswt 002 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

And this is the result! (You have to full view or else it will be lossy and pixelated)

Cikaastesinowina by ~PinkPanthress on deviant ART

I should have stayed in Bed today!

2009-01-23T18:26:00.006+01:00

I.
First of all, never drink selfmade, instant Cappuccino directly after pouring the boiling hot water in the mug, it will hurt like hell. I know... now! :(

II.
Yay, I can see them again... that is, all the Blogs I follow. I wasn't able to get to them properly in my Dashboard and on my Profile for a few Days now. Tomorrow, right in the morning I'll catch up on all of them. :)

III.
Was in Town today, as to fill out a money transfer. Lots of shite happened, except I wasn't able to complete the transfer, my only afterthought is that I should have stayed at Home in the first.

IV.
A few new Resources for free!
I guess by now you should know the rules, 'kay? ;)

Tswt by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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Tsws 004 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

I have to be quick,. I am tired,.. only had 1 hour and 24 minutes of sleep last Night. :/
Bye...

New Stocks and a bit of karma...

2009-01-15T12:55:00.004+01:00

So I worked for a very good and dear friend, from the other side of the World, 5 days and nights in a row with no sufficient info, but still I managed to create something simple for his upcoming Book. It's not too good a work, but I did it for free and there was no budget, so I had only my own Resources... :/ But I guess it will suffice for the Cover, and if it makes him happy!? ^^;
While working at it I also found out that I have to learn more about Poser and Cinema4D.
That's it for now!

And here are two new Stocks/Resources. Hope you'll be able to use them somehow!
And... Credit=Love

Tsws 002 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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Tsws 003 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Lölölöh! 8D~

2009-01-08T08:59:00.003+01:00

How awesome is that? I can follow other People's Blog by simply clicking their Follow option! Almost LJ like, makes me so happy! *sighs*

Oh.... and today I am an ovo-lacto-vegetarian for 253 Days... which means 36 weeks and 1 day being a veggie-thingy! I really never believed I could stand it longer than 3 month, but wow!

Here are my two latest Stock/Resources!

20090105 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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20090106 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Also a huge (11.1MB) zip , really hi-res I tell you btw, pack of my 2 Years old, unloved German play Cards. They are awesome, bloody use them People. It's not as if I want your Money for them, do I?

Old german playing Cards by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Well, whatever, bye...

New WP and a happy new Year!

2009-01-01T23:00:00.000+01:00

A new/old Wallpaper for you to download. It's a 1440x900 pixel .png of a very simplistic piece. Created in TM2, surroundings in Cinema 4D, render and brdf with vray. Feedback is always welcome. Thank you!

Sitar-WP by ~PinkPanthress on deviant ART

Just a quick one!

2008-12-28T17:57:00.004+01:00

So I made another Terragen render for stock use the other day but was too lazy to put it up on DA 'til today. Might be last one for this Year!
Have fun... I'm out!

TgS-01 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Im Akshully Ded, Dis Ar Teh Mah Ghost Writin!

2008-12-25T09:30:00.005+01:00

So I Decidd 2 Rite Dis Whole Post In Lolcat, Iz All Teh Fault Ov DEVIANTART Frend Ov Mine. I Knoe I Havent Updatd 4 Sum Tiem, But I Gues Iz Not Dat Hooj Problem Since U All Seem 2 Be 2 Disabld 2 Rite Comment Her Or On DEVIANTART When U Download Teh Resourcez.
Whatevr, So Has Fun Wif Dis Stockz An Use Them Not Wifout Creditin Me, K?
Thnk U An Bai

OMFG... Writin Liek Dis Shouldnt Has Been As Nearly As Fun As Dis Wuz 2 Me

A Lot Ov Linkz Followin...
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An Last But Not Least Mah Latest...

No ASUS, pleazez!

2008-11-26T20:25:00.005+01:00

Never ever... don't you every buy something from ASUS*!
Because the next moment Bautzen will happen to you, too!

And if there's one thing that 90% of the People from the former East part of Germany^ cannot repair, then it's your Laptop in RealLife!
Even not with a Wand and some nifty Spell from the Potterverse!

I am going to send my Laptop for the second time away tomorrow or on Friday, depending on how long they let me wait with the RMA# this time.
DX

Legend
* - ASUS in Germany
^ - This statement is not meant in offense, it's just true

Me & Mr. Smith (Fuckery) lalala

2008-10-27T10:11:00.004+01:00

Have been awake all night, wasn't able to sleep. Will later fold and put my clothes into the wardrobe.
Now that I think of it, I sometimes wish we had those nifty north american closets, those ones that are part of the wall. You cannot even imagine how annoying cupboards, european style, can be. The room looks plain ugly.
Whatever, will do that and then go to bed, sleeping while everyone else has to work. :D

Uy, and... I watched Blood Ties last night, the first half of the pilot ep.! It was great and C. Cox is very good!

So... it is time again to get some free goodies! Today it is 2 at once!
As always kiddies... download, enjoy, credit!

Second Gradient Pack by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART
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PPG-01 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

G'night!!!

What the Fook? x_X

2008-10-10T00:37:00.002+02:00

Was at my doc today... why do these docs not listen to me???
Pain, pain, pain... and he tells me crap like... CVI... but the not so deadly variant... WTF???
So why do I have to bother him for years before he admits to it?
And then he tells me lies like... ya know, it's not too serious, lulz! XD
GAH!!!

My grey eyed Boy! lalala

2008-09-29T14:26:00.004+02:00

I am in need of getting more Info on the whole Veggie-thingy stuff. I had a craving for Mushrooms last weekend and ate lots of it, and my guess is that I was low on Protein and all. :/

So more Info or stop doing it! <- Man am I radical!!! <_<;

TT_TT
P.S.: Use+Credit=Love

Seasons I - Fractal Pack by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Free fractal Gradients and my Laptop

2008-09-20T04:50:00.003+02:00

So I got my Laptop back a few Days ago. It's working, somewhat... but they did send it to an East German Repair Service via DHL, which means ASUS is a huge load of Shit!
I paid 1200€'s for this fucking Laptop and this is the Service I get???

I swear to all that is holy to me, I won't ever buy anything from this SOB's again!
I am truely miffed right now, almost all the Problems are still there and I cannot get any work done! I mean, work that I could actually get paid for! :(
I swear, I am close to crying. They even send me the Laptop in a cheap, thin Carton back, not the real one I sent it off with. What am I going to do when we move to another Apartment, he???
Fuck all of them!!!

Here a nice Freebie for the Fractalers out there!

First Gradient Pack by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Another short Note of Doom!

2008-09-05T15:59:00.006+02:00

So, today after waiting for around 12 Days, they send someone to take my Laptop back to ASUS, only Problem... it was cheeky 20-something who though he could talk to me as if he owned the World! I just thought, WTF?!?!?

And if I say cheeky, I really mean cheeky like a little Son-of-a-Bitch/Bastard/Motherfucker! I was close to strangling him. But me being a Pacifist I didn't do what my heart told me to do. <_<
*I am too kind for my own Good!*

Also... didn't ASUS use to send their own Staff to get your Hardware for Repairings? Why not this Time???

P.S.: Wow, what happened to my Blogger Dashboard??? I can add fave Blogs for Updates!!! Major Yays!!!

P.P.S.: 128 DAYS!ONE!1>CAPSLOCKEND>

Fk site, she fk, f**k!

2008-08-24T23:41:00.003+02:00

Just on a quick Note!

'kay... so I had to postpone the whole Laptop-sending-away-to-get-it-fixed thingy for at least a week. Which means, that I will send it to Asus not before coming Tuesday. <_<
Argh, all these Months of waiting and on top not being able to render in C4D is making me all gah!!! :(

Bad news!

2008-08-15T00:44:00.005+02:00

For now it seems like something's wrong with my new notebook's CPU, so I'll have to send it back to Asus, and I do not wish to use my old Mac at this hot weather.
This means for you, no Actions, Brushes or Wallpapers in the coming 6 to 14 Days! Sorry!
Tomorrow I will have to do a back up and then I'll send him away! :(

I guess, I'll hit our bibliotheque tomorrow for some printed books to live through these hard days without my precious computer. *cries*

Bye!

P.S.: Oh, and my mom bought me a bouquet of Carnations today! I never got flowers in my life, except once or twice before from my mom when I was in the hospital or on my 18'th birthday! (-':

100 Days of vegy-thingy, and new Corner Brushes!

2008-08-08T17:47:00.007+02:00

And it is Time again for some Brushes to 'beautify' the Corners!
:3 Use, love, dance & credit!

4 Energy Corner Brushes - II by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

What else? -Oh, yeah no Stargate Atlantis tonight on SciFi!!! :(
It is disturbing how addicted I am to this show, 'cause I normally do not watch TV at all.

Ah, yup! Today I have been a vegetarian for 100 Days! -And I would love to do nothing more than biting into a fat, spicy piece oh my mammy's special beef. So tender and rich to the tastebuds! All 100% helal to be happy with! But those days are gone. *cries*

Lá go oíche

2008-08-03T17:48:00.005+02:00

Heya, long time no see! o_O;
I thought it was time that I would try out something new and so I played around with Chaoscope and made 11 .pngs' for you.

Download, feel happy, use and credit me!

11 Kaos Frac Stox by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Makes it three! Korean brushes for free!

2008-06-26T09:02:00.004+02:00

I was going to upload them for some time now, but our Net Flatrate would freeze every few minutes, so I stopped doing anything on the Pack, later when that Problem was resolved our Modem died, so at least now everything seems to be ok.

Like I always keep telling you, have fun using them but never forget to credit! Thnx!

Korean Brushes 03 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

P.S.: Just took a look at my Sitemeter for this Blog. ^_^ People from Alberta and Vancouver came by, that so makes my belly all warm and fluttery. Seems like I had some Butterflies for Breakfast, canadian Butterflies! *munch*

P.P.S.: What,? Germany won against Turkey, Yesterday? -Yeah, sure! Who got bribed for that one?
*shrugs* I never did like Soccer anyways!

New brushes set and Cinema 4D!

2008-06-13T23:54:00.003+02:00

A new korean brushes set for Photoshop will be on its way in the upcoming 48 hours. Also I am
playing around in Cinema 4D, seems like my Muse is back again! *woohoo*

P.S.: 44 Days being vegeterian and no more counting, 'cause it's the way it is! XD

P.P.S.: No more to say!

Goodnight!

Unwell, 1 Month veg-veg and appoinment!

2008-06-03T00:21:00.003+02:00

It's already far after midnight, I have less than eight hours to sleep 'cause I have to go to my Radiologist tomorrow, my Coccyx is giving me hell these Days so I just have to, though I do not want to. Then I have an, for me, important appointment ...my right Eye hurts like hell and I feel like shite.

II.

I still want to create a nice Vector. I already know who I want to vectorise, only problem is I do not have nor can I find a good Picture of that Actor in a good Resolution.

III.

Today was the 32'th Day of me being a Vegetarian. I didn't have any problems coping to my new eating habits. Didn't eat any Poultry either though I first thought that maybe I should do it every now and then. But it wasn't necessary and I didn't want to all of this Month.
And since on Sunday, Yesterday, the second Month did start I guess I won't mind it any more than before.

Though I still sometimes sniff the Air like a Dog whenever my Mom puts the Sücük into the Pilav... :( But I'll eat my Pilav with Tomatoes or Curry, that's okay, too.

Goodnight!

No artsy fartsy shite but thouroughly tired of it all!!!

2008-05-28T10:07:00.010+02:00

Goddess! Over 6 Months now and I just cannot get my fat arse up to do some nice 3D work.
I have no Ideas.
Actually it all started with me buying my fat, new Laptop at the end of October 2007. I 'gave' it to myself as a belated birthday present. Btw, how pathetic is that!? I got 25 that Month, shouldn't a gorgeous, sweet looking bloke buy me something expensive instead??? Like a bling-bling or a Mustang. Ok, let's stop dreaming! -Though it is a good question if I may say so.

So I bought it and after installing Bryce, Poser, Cinema 4D plus süper-nice rendererrereererer....... Vray, I started playing around and made a few pieces, did some fractals just for the fun of it, too, and then in December... BAM!!!ONE1!!
I just got left behind by my Muse!

I don't know what to do, I am playing around again with html, css and try out vector graphics but nothing with substance, nothing that I would really complete!
And even worse, I just surf around on the net while my little iMac is sleeping on the Desk in my bedroom. I hate Microsoft, yet I also hate Steve.
If only Apple was the way like before I would have bought an Apple Laptop or none at all. The digital World is fucking evil!

On another note my Coccyx still hurts like hell, for over 5 Month now, and though my Doc told me at the beginning of this Month to go visit a Radiologist I am so terribly scared that I haven't brought up the courage to actually do right that! You know... visit him!

And my back hurts because of my boobs, God how I wish I had smaller ones. My back and neck are so fucking killing me right now, yet I don't feel the pain so much 'cause the pain at the tail-bone swallows all other in their quantity and noticeability.

Dear Lord, while writing all this I took a look out of the window and saw a neighbour running around with a jacket, is the woman daft? It's sweating 26°C or so in the shadow.
I am sweating, and I am by no means a person who normally sweats from sitting around doing nothing!

I was going to write so much more meaningless shite but I am too tired right now. Bye!

P.S.: Doh, how much of an idiot can you be. I was going to link whoever is stupid enough to read this load of *** to a new set of PS CS Action, called Slight Enhancement II!

So feel free to download, use as you need and credit, 'cause crediting = Love!

Slight Enhancement II by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

P.P.S.: Ooh, and 4 weeks no meat eating!!!

Omigad!1ONE! I am melting & some veg-veg! <_<

2008-05-15T05:24:00.004+02:00

Just a small update 'cause I am bored like hell... *goodness*
I talk too much Denglish these Days, everything sounds so cheap and germanized when I write English! D:

So we're having summer weather since the end of April, but from the 06'th of May on we are having a mega orgiastic, Super-heat-wave where the thermometer shows no less than 26°C in the shadows, or whatever you call it in English... and I am melting! :,(
Which means as well I still wasn't in Cologne, getting my nose-piercing! DX

Also I try to not go to the Radiologist, I am far too scared of the outcome!

Ooh, and... I am a vegie-thingy-terian for over two weeks now!
Yeah, also beans and onions are a big NO from now on! D: Which makes me wonder, what can I eat after all!?! I have difficulties with almost everything edible in this World!

I'm out! *el burpo*

Sometimes less Action is much more pleasing to the Eye!

2008-05-12T02:13:00.005+02:00

I thought I should give away a few of my personal Actions on Photoshop. I have a few I use a lot to enhance my personal Photos slightly, the first Pack that you can Download contains the first 3 of mine.
If it gets downloaded more than say 25 times or so I'll give away a few more. ^_^;

Slight Enhancement by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Doc appointment, bad news and good news!

2008-05-10T19:30:00.006+02:00

So my Coccyx is causing me pain for a little over 3 Month. On Monday the pain was so dire I had to cancel an important meeting with someone. But when I made a phone call on Thursday for an appointment at my Doc, turned out I had to go on Friday instead... :/

When I got there I told him about the Pain and he gave me an interview about my health in the Past. Well, turned out with my bilateral dysplasia, its subluxation and the two following surgeries when I was a Child takes its toll. I bloody knew it!!! I fucking hate Doctors!
He asked me if I already had given birth to a Child because the hips widening and all that shite, which of course I haven't, and if my hips themselves still hurt, which they do for about 15 years now but whatever, then he did 'put' me on a Scale to weigh me, turns out I lost between 4,5 to 6 kilograms in the past 5 Month! Yay!!!

He wants me to go to a Radiologist in our Town so they can take a 'shot' of my hips, the coccyx and my spine ...déjà vu very much?!

'kay, though I feel very close to cry and am terribly scared... I won't Panic! :(

I mean, last Time I would tell my Doctor that my Hips/Bones did hurt they told me I was a Hypochondriac and to lazy to do Sport in Elementary School, I was 9 and it would take 2 more Years of pain and walking in agony, a sharp sting in my hips with every step I did take, until they would do an emergency surgery when I was and ruin the rest of my Life at an early Stage!
So what should I think of it??? Everything repeating itself?
Or did I get Paranoid with Time!? - Not likely!!!

So this means... I lost weight! But I am having problems with my health again! Well, the pain never stooped, still now it is worse than before!

Good night!!!

Ruined nose-thingy and bad language ahead!

2008-05-08T01:58:00.004+02:00

Sorry for my foul mouth, but...

What the hell is wrong with those idiot People around me??? -I was barely out of my standard late morning Douche, getting ready for a Brunch when the younger of my two older Brother stuck his fucking Nose in my Nose-Piercing thingy, getting all fucked up about issue of the Studio I had chosen and wanted the job to be done and all.

I mean, wtf??? Banging a 18 year old doesn't make you wiser right??? Who the fuck does he thingk he is?
I have gone thrugh a fucking lot more in my Life than he did, and still he goes on my nerves about Hygiene and yadda, yadda...
One of the hygenic centered Stories contained an Ash-Tray and Needles, really I mean, I haven't even seen any Cigarettes in the whole Place.
I fucking don't care if his catholic child Girlfriend is getting all prissy about someone getting something he or she is too scared about. Or whatever the fuck is wrong with him. Maybe he's got blue Balls.

God, and that makes me think of her again... she is officially 18 of Years, but mind wise she is no older than say 12 or so! And her laugh, oh by all that is holy, it scares me more than any Romero Zombie or Argento Demon Movie. D:
Oh, and there's the fact that he is 13 Years older than her! *frustrated*
I feel so ashamed!!!

And the damage their Relationship is causing our Family-Name, fuck my Nose-Piercing cannot be comparable to that! Ever!
She is so immature, and if she would at least look hot, I could just go on and not mind since she would look gorgeous, but no I cannot even brag on about a great looking Girlfriend on my Brother's side.

Whatever!!!
So I'll go on next Tuesday to another Piercing Studio in Cologne. But God help me if I won't hit my brother's ugly Face if he stucks his stinking nose and shitty chin in my private business again.

To recite his 'best' (add a huge drop of sarcasm here) Quote of today.
"Anyways, I thought you weren't into these kind of things. I mean, a Nose-Piercing?" *lulz*

Yeah, immature isn't it, dear Brother? -Just like your behaviour and your recent, fugly Girlfriend.

I swear, right now I would love to fucking punch a whole in his Face!
Man, People are dying out of hunger in this World, yet my Family and other Acquaintances of mine get all worked up about me wanting a shitty Nose-Piercing and a Tattoo!

I am tired and must go to sleep, night!

One more Day!

2008-05-06T22:11:00.004+02:00

So we went to town today,that is, me and my mom. After searching the Tattoo&Piercing Studio for an whole hour, we found it in a side-alley. I asked the owner, a nice woman, about prices and methods to get a nice nose-piercing.
There is this one with that cow-marking machine, right? This one is, I guess, called the gun method where your nostril gets punched by a dull stud-piercing. It costs only 15€ which makes about $23,35 in the US and Canada...
And then there's this european Canula method, where you have the sharp needle and the plastic thingy, it costs 49€ which makes about $76,25 in the US and Canada...
I know the second method is a bit expensive but I think I should take it rather than the gun-method.
'Cause the Canula will be sharp and that should give a nicer, more non-painful Result.
So, yeah Goodbye 49€, god what I could have bought with all that Money! XD

My mother went crazy and is miffed right now, telling me it was wrong and all. I asked her to please take a look at my age for one, and then also think about the old Turks before they were converted to Islam, they had also nose-piercings, so what???

Then I told her that I was going to get myself a Tattoo next Month, and she almost fainted then and there in front of the shop.
Boy I think she'll have a coronary when I tell her about my hair. :3

Now it's after midnight and I have given out a round of soft ice to my family, yeah I know I am being generous today... and sit here on the Balcony with my Laptop. It's beautifully cold after a really, really hot Day. :D ..and I am feeling fine!

5'th day Veggie, Nose-Piercing and Criticism via Fandom!

2008-05-05T15:45:00.005+02:00

So, yeah I know it sounds boring by now, but 5 Days of Vegetarianism and I am about to crawl up the Walls. I never thought about it that much but meat is or rather was a huge part of my Life, so it's kind of hard to not eat it, yet I haven't eaten any. :D

What shocked me most was my mother Yesterday, while eating some Salad for Dinner with my Father we were discussing Dinner for Tuesday, she did say she was going to make some nice Sarma, then looking at me for a few secs she asked if I would eat Sarma without the minced meat, just rice as filling. I really didn't know what to say! She is when it comes to meat and food a hardcore Muslim, so she thinks it is a sin to not eat meat... since the helal/kosher animal, given by God to you, would die without any use or purpose if you didn't eat them.
Whatever, I just said yes and was very happy about her thoughtfulness. ^^;

I am thinking about getting myself a Nose-Piercing tomorrow. I wanted one since I was 13 or so, and now that I am working as my own Boss I think it would be okay, since I cannot fire myself for Tattoos or Piercings. XD
So, yeah seems like I will through 50€ to the wind for a Piercing in my right Nostril tomorrow!
And a Tattoo is on its way next Month!!!

Now onto something absolutely different! So I manipulated an Actors face, trying just to make him look younger and such, went to his fan forum and posted the darn piece 10 Days ago in before-after fashion, and fuck it, today I had like 40 clicks on the thread and yet no one has given me any constructive criticism. Hell, I would even be happy if they did tell me it looks like shite.
Scheisse nochmal!!! Teufel, Tot und Teufel!

I'll wait another 4 Days, then I'll close the thread. I mean, it's not as if I cannot cope with negative crits, but I didn't even get that, so what should I make of that! :'( I am truly and terribly miffed!
Though... the guys on that forum are very nice, so I guess it must be my fault!

Inkscape brushes, 3'rd Day of Veggie-thingy and so on!

2008-05-03T10:27:00.003+02:00

Ok, so this is the third Day of my new eating habits and I can already feel my restraints crumble. Oh Lord give me strength!!! XD

And I've got very bad pain inside due to my reflux these Days. Bleh!!!

While definitely not thinking of lovely Cows swallowed/devoured whole and alive, I did try myself slowly at the first few vector exercises. But since I digress easily it ended in tribal, vector brushes for Photoshop. *doh*

Here they are for everyone stopping by!

Inked Scape by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

1'st Day of my personal veggie-tart-ianism!

2008-05-01T23:36:00.005+02:00

Oh my God, so it seems I really did start my new 'life-style'...
As of today I am a mixture of a Lacto-Ovo-Vegeterian and somewhat of a Pollo-Vegetarian. Minus the Chicken, 'cause my stomach is rebelling for a bout 1 & 1/2 Year if I try to eat it, so there is only Poultry left in form of Turkey for me, which I will try to eat only once every two weeks or less if possible.
Let's see how that all will interfere with my chronic Anaemia & Iron deficiency anemia.

And today they all made fun of me when I told my Family! XD I am okay with that though!

I won't stop eating meat because of animal rights or the thought it is cruel to let them be 'slaughtered' so I can eat them. No, I love meat but my body is behaving quite funny these past Years besides I want to loose some weight and I want to live healthier. It is part of my Plan on living healthier, which I am working on for many Years now.
I stopped smoking almost 8 Years ago over night, and a few Month later stopped drinking Alcohol. Though the hardest thing I have ever drunk was Champagne and Wine, but still.... :)

And I know already how much I will miss eating minced cow-meat raw and fresh!!! *cries*

Today I ate over the whole Day only bread, rice, mushrooms, onions, cheese, sojola and Harzer cheese,! ....with no meat, no cold cut, no turkish sücük! :( I really need some time to get used to this, and still do not like the thought!

P.S.: If anyone reads this, the next Post will include some new, nifty, useful PS CS brushes again, I am already working on them!

New brushes, now it's for the evil Corners!

2008-04-26T12:08:00.006+02:00

While we wait for another 2 1/2 Month until I can see more and new SGA stuff I did create these nice brushes, so go, download and use them!

They r liek, eh, hm... Corners, yeah! Ah, what-evur!!!
Ohmigad, lookie Brushes! *runs off*

Also, you know, like ah... crediting and stuff, ah.... yeah, you know right?! *lulz*

4 Energy Corner Brushes by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Third free pack for everyone!

2008-03-25T22:44:00.003+01:00

Fresh, and hot out of my mind into a pack for you!
I though it would be nice to create 5 more neat dividers for you all to download for free!
As always enjoy them and credit if you use... blah! <_<;

5 Energy Divider Brushes - III by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

And more dividers for free!

2008-03-20T13:43:00.002+01:00

Another quick crosspost to spread my newest pack of divider brushes...
And do not forget, credit equals love!!!

5 Energy Divider Brushes - II by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Cheers!

Free Brushes Time! Being all artsy!

2008-03-18T16:23:00.007+01:00

So, I crossposted this on my lj account and thought that maybe someone might stumble over instead if I also crosspost it here on my blog. They are really nifty and if today the download rate counts something around 250 clicks I'll make another pack tomorrow. So enjoy and you know all that necessary crap about crediting when you use... & yadda yadda yadda!!!

5 Energy Divider Brushes by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

Have a nice Day and lots of fun with your new brushes! ^_^

And the korean brush frenzy goes on!

2008-03-16T16:05:00.007+01:00

And here goes to another round of nice korean brushes!!! XD
Enjoy, and never forget to credit, cause crediting is love and Karma will be good to you if you go by the rules!

Korean Brushes 02 by ~PinkPanthress-Stock on deviant ART

That's it, I'm out!

A few goodies!

2007-12-20T01:15:00.000+01:00

I tought I should post a new blog and spread my newest pieces as goodies here as well. :D

My newest Brush pack for PSCS here Korean Brushes 01

Download the whole wallpaper pack here -> Bulat

Please do not forget to credit when you use the brushes, thnx! XD

Heya!

2006-08-01T16:19:00.000+02:00

Ah, I haven't updated my Blog for some Time.
If there is any way to add friends here or use groups, please tell me.

And why the bloody hell am I not able to upload an image??? BULLOCKS!!!

A Qizzle fo sho!

2006-05-19T21:22:00.000+02:00

Let's do it the LJ- way!

Which are you?

made by Jen

Le Test

2006-05-19T19:38:00.000+02:00

This is a Test!

Well, it is as you see!

And this is my Art Site, full with goodies and many Wallpapers...